M. Theostrata Philosophicus (unedited).

Alan Watts: Because when we listen to music, we hear melody, only because we remember the sequence. We hear the intervals between the tones, but more than that we remember the tones that led up to the one we are now hearing - and we are trained musically to anticipate certain consequences. And to the extent that we get the consequences we anticipate, we feel that we understand the music. But to the extent that the composer does not adhere to the rules, and gives us unexpected consequences, we feel that we don’t understand the music … But of course it becomes apparent, that the perception of music, the ability to hear melody, will depend on a relationship between past, present and future sounds …

An initial domino must always fall to commence the toppling process, and as with the razing of Berlin Wall, and in more abstract ways how we seek to demolish ideological, cultural and sociological divides, so too now it is imperative for us to tear down the Dissociative-Amnesic barriers afflicting each of us individually, and the world. Begin we now to light the dark, illumine shadows, to make that which is unknown known. Time it is this paradigm shifts from Collective Unconscious to Collective Conscious.

There is much we don’t know about the truth. Our truth, as it is. This is all about to change. Have peace. You must believe that there is more to you than you could ever imagine. For there is, shall be eternal. It is not that you will not change but that you feel no reason. It is not that you cannot believe in yourself though rather that you have yet to find the means. Emotional, physical, psychological and energetic blocks, perhaps. Holes and cracks in the chakras, damages to the aura, as well the physical body, are all very real things which impede and ail one’s progress. Most of all remains the truth, one truth in each of us individually and together the whole - which is severed all from waking comprehension - forgotten.

Ego is not the enemy. It could and should never be expected to tolerate or master pain, fear and hate the way which Soul naturally abounds in the eternal love, peace and joy of Consciousnesses Creation.

For love, peace and joy are above all virtues of abundance and perpetual freedom, and the lighted bliss of Soul knows that the challenges which have both birthed and borne Ego are burdens it may have never been brought to bear. For although it is a synthetic Consciousness so to speak, or as the Toltecs teach a parasite to the pure host who is Soul, it is a form of Consciousness nonetheless, and should be honoured and loved as such, only then can it heal. Merely to loathe or profess as much is to condemn humanness.

Truth may be lost but not unmade or altered. Nor does the Akashic Record ever forget or misplace. The truth of the conditioning and trauma which comprises your programming, this hardwired software for Ego that dominates the unwoken human mind, and the karma which carries you from there to here, shall not be discounted nor impugned. You are divine and your suffering esteemed elsewhere, too.

Ego is friend. You must tell it as much and assure that this is equal. Truth is that your mind is constantly preoccupied with self-protection - be it literal or social - simply because you have been hurt. Namely, deliberately or otherwise the enormous task of keeping yourself safe was designated to the mind at some point in time far long ago. This was never going to equate to a winning situation. Impossible.

Until you learn, realize in epiphany, that what is happening on the inside is vastly more important than what has gone on, or is going on without, and naturally will want and need this inner-space to be a nice place for you to live, and the spring-cleaning takes place consciously-subconsciously-unconsciously, then and only beyond this point will you be on the true path and your yoga come to its rooting within you.

It is from the destination at the end of this cleansing journey you come to know your true power. Then you will know and understand well when this happens that this was always where you were meant to be and that, to such an extent, three-dimensional reality is in a sense holographic and all of the individuals unconscious its sims. You will see how the pain keeps you on the outside and disables your inner-truth.

For thousands of years, many incarnations through deep karmic channels, the falling domino scheme has been cycling in an undesirable direction for each of us. Our actions have caused traumas and the principles of the universe and dark evolution of the species has perpetuated this motion. It is normal and egoic to blame the person of who our individual suffering came unto us vis-à-vis. For every single one of us the perpetrator(s) were disparate. None of us have been victimized by the same chorus of people yet all of us have hurt at the hands of some person(s). The truth is this process cannot cease. Never while we value enacting punishment, chasing vengeance, in lieu of forgiveness and compassion. From only then we may no longer forget, though rather start to intensively remember. Everything.

The species is sick and so the planet, animals and nature are also ill and suffer. As a basic tenet to understand where we are, the evolution of our species only goes so far as the collective vibration. Surely, it’s not enough to forego affecting the damaging things we do for Mother Earth to achieve balance and harmony. She is sick because we are sick - nothing can be fixed until we have healed.

The planet does not have another ten- or twenty-year grace-period for anyone to gnaw on thinking about change without actually enacting it in themself. For those few who seek growth, you become saviours of the species and inherit the future; upon your back teeters a shield with fifty-thousand squatters unawares as to your fortitude. Stone giants risen up, breaking free from the sediment.

Kundalini energy is essential for spiritual change and we must refrain from expelling it during the healing period. If a carpenter was renovating a room and continually tore out the insulation before moving on to the drywall, he would never complete a brand-new, clean bedroom and only ever remain stuck toying with the preliminary phase of construction. You must choose to save substance, especially if male.

You must be impenetrable. This does not mean you will not experience excruciating anguish. It means that at the center you root firm and stand still like H. Miller’s hummingbird. Do not succumb to any pain. Remember also that your truths, both speaking and living them, is quintessential to thy overall wellness. To believe yourself unworthy and to avoid or omit truth, is to discredit both your purpose and mission.

The egoic mind of the modern species has developed an entire etiquette apropos dishonesty. The sole space in which someone is not on the path is when they aren’t telling the truth. Very few human beings alive right now are fulfilling purpose. Because nearly no one is being honest. Begin your mission now. A matter for reality isn’t that the truth is wholly forgotten but also has been, on indistinct levels, forsaken. Truth is your freedom. You will not again submit autonomy. We will not surrender sovereignty. Never. Truth is the elixir and the libation to follow will be in rejoice of the freedom which you are completely.

We are cut off from truth in two fundamental ways. First is exactly having lost trace of knowledge our origins and the multi-special transformation and evolution of humanity from earlier times. Beyond this historiographic truth we have no idea about where we come from in an astral sense. Second is much more afflicting at a root level. We, each of us, have displaced remnants of our lives, and disconnected profoundly from truths that seemed too insurmountable and unbearable to cope with or integrate.

You are pure consciousness, although as human have an inferior form of consciousness, originating in the brain and projecting itself in the mindspace, whose sole intent and capability is to contend for total supremacy of your focus, memory and cognition. Neither can live while the other survives. And as with Harry and Voldemort, only one could ever truly live anyways. You must learn to see past distractions.

Truth is trauma, as such is our existence across recent millennia. The one who distracts, Ego, who many consider usurper, evolved as a mechanism for defense. It is limited only to the experiences which have enabled its growth throughout its role in human evolution. Like us it prefers love, and as such to label itself as benevolent and magnanimous. Yet it can be destructive to self and others, as its chaos shall harm either, due to its finite makeup. Therefore we doth both destroy and self-destruct, causing mayhem external, then suffer egregiously with no exception or apparent end in sight, internal.

The truth of our origins resonates great sociological repercussions. The reality is a once docile, fairly tranquil species was seeded with the DNA of more advanced, somewhat barbarous extraterrestrial beings. Blood was mixed and herein lies many reasons for our huge violence; we are these results.

Many people have had their power taken away by people who also had their power taken away. When the mind is sick it feels as though all we can do is hide ourselves away and be tyrannized endlessly. Find your grounding and remember, it’s all an ego-trip on Spaceship Earth anyway. Begin to instill practices which might help you find power, energy, electricity; meditation, breathwork, exercise, cold, nature, mirror and light gazing, positive settings and consumption, learning to sit in your center even without alignment. Anytime the mind is hurt the body cannot bring itself into homeostatic balance. Practice.

The actions of a person may have created deficit within you, but that person did not create deficit within you. Human beings are organismic. Although in our current state of neoliberal-determined austerity the only thing we work towards is endless progress heading for a void, chaos, oblivion. Unlike bees and ants, we have lost the true way of life and from this disconnection, and all else lost to us, we create arc-pain. The nature of this is cyclical and thus, if you wish to judge and believe it is your right to do so, blame not the singular individual but also the list of people who have created his suffering, and the innerworkings of mind and body which are beasts of their own. We have not been taught to harness our nature and with the great trauma we all suffer and create more. This is no one individual’s problem, but in futility and the frustration we feel at perceived helplessness the collective eats the scapegoats, unwittingly shaping the martyrdom of a tomorrow-world built on love. For that is the true greatest deficit of all.

The mindscape, left untrained, becomes like a minefield. Remind yourself often of this olden aphorism: If you aim at nothing, you hit nothing. Remind yourself also too that you are nobody. Us streaming light. We flowing rivers of consciousness. There is nothing you should or should not be. Here you are guided.

Every human being currently alive and for many ages past has a dissociative or dissociating story. To not understand what this means is to still have a mind with partitions, a split mind hiding parts of the whole. The truth of Psychogenic (Nocturnal) Fugue is a source of incredibly ripened fruit ready to be plucked. As Sigmund Freud tried to tell us, before racketeering, hot pressures brought him ultimately to renege, an irrefutable and primary source of neuroses is disremembered events (trauma) hidden in one’s own past. The truth is absolute. No matter how much you think you’d like it to be different, it remains unalterable.

People do not speak the truth because of fear. The masses of society have been conditioned to salivate over persecuting those who act out of line. So no one speaks the truth, and the pain stays bottled inside, and with lack of knowing how to take care of this one a person stays unconscious and this baggage leads them to commit the same actions over again, without knowing why or understanding their great pain. If people were given amnesty to tell their truth, confessions and admissions would pour in worldwide. But society keeps the vibrations low by punishing and not getting to the roots which are millennia-old. Thus, this issue is perpetuated and we are kept stagnant by an establishment which has made us all vampires.

We do not need an Einstein. Or a Tesla. We have done enough left-brained thinking for generations far beyond our position pertaining where the world is right now. The best thing you can do is tell the truth; find out what your own truth even is, its fullness, and then tell it. This is the only way to heal the world.

The great wakeup is coming. Hopefully the great reset. Do not forget the old saying, that the greatest trick the devil ever pulled off was convincing the world he did not exist. We only start new with truth.

Learn through practice to relax into the seat of consciousness at the back of head and to experience disparity to the frenetic thought, suffering and hyperactivity of the frontal lobe. Reconnection to the truth, belief and loving peace incarnates your return-to-form, tour-de-force performance à la living. Ego-identity is only the human’s infrastructural concept creating an illusion of finite, individual self. Ego-mind thinks only what it has experienced, believing this to be true and cannot think otherwise. We must learn to deconstruct mind, there is no effective way to do that because it exists, you cannot get rid of it and must learn to surrender. You must learn its tale so that you can see Soul’s, your own. Trauma downregulates the body. Ego is born from the pain you’ve ever experienced and is only intent on your physical safety. Yet it mistakes emotions for an attack and the independent consciousness which is Soul and your true nature and being. Anything which questions or challenges its legitimacy is an affront. With pain, do not take yourself out of the game. This will delay healing and consolidate the pain. Do not be afraid to surrender or tell the truth. Or rather, learn not to be. You are not meant to be alone. During awakening the ego may even try to mimic your soul. Talk about a righteous ego. It fears death so.

Perhaps a sentient being would need to have a brain which is composite whole and not made up of separate parts in order to be a master of executive function. Ego can even infiltrate and overshadow your psychic abilities. We must surrender radically. Complete and unconditional acceptance of all that you are, have been and have done. It is the only way. You must do this to begin. Darkness is absence of light. How could you be pure or purified shrouded in such a veil of darkness as you have been. You have walked a dark path. It is time to go the other direction. Believe as rigorously in the light as demons relish the dark. It is your right and the objective intention of your soul to strive to exist in the light at all times. Believe in the power of your protectors to cleanse you have dark entities the way that Arwen trusts her people to send the horsewash against the Nazgul. Stimulate your mind’s healing powers by imagining the Istari Light as your beloved star when in the dark, and all other lights have gone out. Believe. Trust. Your ability to heal is in the frontal lobe. You must trust in your pain. Ego will try to block. Keep striving. You will never be good enough. Not to the ego-mind. It is conditioned to judgement and shaped by traumatic experiences which you no longer remember. You don’t even know your story, and you deserve to know the pain you have experienced you glorious one. Eru Illuvatar would be proud.

Canada as one of the quasi socio-cultural progressive and most innovative nations in the world is the perfect ground to begin a case-study for change and growth. Decriminalize drugs and reinvent addiction treatment in a similar way as Portugal. Someone is not a criminal for having the uncontrollable biological urge to take drugs. Nor even for taking them to reach an altered state. Reform the prison system similar to Finland. Begin to actually treat individuals. Someone is not a criminal for holding so much trauma and pain that they biologically act on a tragic impulse. The only time perhaps someone is a criminal is when the repeat without recourse or remorse though usually this is such a deep unconscious problem, so even then probably not. We also need to take all of our massive tracts of Crown Land and legalize free domestic dwelling. This means someone can build a home and grow their own food and live where they choose outside of modern society. As long as it is eco-friendly and sustainable. No corporations obviously. Then we can start to shift our infrastructural model towards building healing lodges and places to both support and protect people and their energies during the coming transformative days in which many people will find themselves awakening and aligning with truth in the years to come. We must also reform education, begin to teach children how to be centered and people how to heal. Healing sanctuaries are most necessary for this species with enormous ancestral traumas, personal traumas, heavy karmic footprints, and the mind which believes it is the sum of its set of experiences. The body is a biological computer, cellular machine. It functions on input-output. Your conscious mind is only 5% of your mindpower. It operates on programs, software installed in the mental processor (ego) which are largely shaped by trauma and conditioning, which is negative mostly. Is this what you are?

When living unconsciously, everything you decide is like a side-effect. Each experience is a drug, some yielding great light and others great dark. Light and dark are equals. We merely react to circumstances and then adjust our behaviour in response to the change afterward. When you get tired of living life by the gross of various sorts of cocktails one after the other whilst hoping everything turns out alright, the eternal flow, truth and inner peace await your return to source. It is soul’s agenda to live as if there is no tomorrow. This means simply to be present or, rather, presence itself. Simply what you secretly crave.

The biological binary is 0s and 1s creating more 0s and 1s. Yet we do not understand the body as a software system. Something that evolves and devolves. Crests and troughs based on experience. Furthermore, if you are unable to see that ego-identity is merely a construct, such that you cannot accept that the person never existed other than in thought-form of both yours and others, nor comprehend that when unconscious we are sims in a matrix called contemporary human civilization, you will never know that at the deepest level, shattering any concept of ego-identity, even though there is a me which is eternal essence, we are all of us each a collaboration. Best hope your collaborators work with aspiration for your best results and outcomes, to bring you peace, love and joy, and not the kind who wield malediction. Chances are there is some mix of both. Humanity must face this reality soon.

Revelation is not a myth. Nor is it evangelical Jesus leading an army of horseback angel legionnaires. It is a simple call to people on Earth to address the truths which have remained hidden and suppressed within. Any mystic has always woken up alone. Now you get to wake up and be awake together. It will be so much easier. You will change the collective energies and the planet will support this immensely. The rapture or worthy who ascend merely means those who do the inner work to become whole. It will take a year, perhaps two or three for your journey and inner truth to be actualized, but no matter how much pain you carry, it will be so much kinder awakening around other people doing the same, with supports in place to carry you when you cannot walk, and lots of people all over the world doing so. We must do this work. The ones who do not do the work are not unworthy. Rather they would be giving in, subject to mind-body and harden in their pain. They might become righteous and pretend its justified. It is for us to show them their way. They are afraid of pain though it cannot really hurt us. It’s worth it.

Who you have become is not who you really are. This is the profound truth of life and awakening. Surviving is a very different state to thriving. The person you have constructed around your pain and lack of inner knowledge/awareness is a closeted, very hurt version of you, miniscule to the full truth. Literally a grain of salt in a salt shaker compared to the fullest you with all of your parts, abilities and wholeness.

Focus on the light in your healing. After all, that is what has been missing. You have been walking in the dark. Living without yourself. You are not a body, we may occupy this animal vessel, yet you are not empty biology, cells with the lights off. We need to get you back online. It has been too long. You may find it helpful to know that beating yourself up, being excessively abstinent or hard on yourself, during the awakening, is a folly of the biological self. Austerity will not work, but rather moderation. Moderation to allow the playing out of what must be processed. Maybe even addictions. Allow. Allow. Allow. Surrender. Accept. Be peaceful and gentle on the one who has carried you thus far, dear ones.

Revelation is a revealing of truth. You are a visitor, not a staple nor fixture. You matter not at all, but are far more amazing, miraculous, unique and brilliant than you could ever possibly understand or imagine. Patience. Oh well is your most practical, sufficient tool towards your success. You will learn this as well.

You need to cultivate inner peace. This is the acquiring and mastery of non-retaliation - against the mental construct in your own head (for starters). You must create your own light, it is you, so how could you live without it. Done are the days of eating and consuming others’ qi, energetic vampirism, and pleasure-seeking such as buying, or gratification techniques to stimulate the happy-chemical receptors. We will never evolve this way. Remember, you are not in-control. All you can do is cultivate inner peace. Maybe you can’t always act or behave greater than your biology, but to learn what’s in there is the goal.

Generational traumatic behaviour, the reality of fugue disorders and dissociative amnesia - the pain that is in all of us genetically and traumas stored in the body from the abuses we don’t remember - is how the dark ones keep humanity malleable, how so many are easily turned to violence, why so many are addicted, why so many are hypersexual, why so many are angry and violently so, why so many suffer chronically of diseases both psychological and physical, and why we are not moving forward with love. You are not the bad one and that thinking is exactly how you are being controlled. Darkness dominates the ego and specifically the fear of not being good enough, which is why the egomind hides parts of life experience away, out of sight of the waking mind. You’re good enough, there’s nothing wrong with you.

Many of us are born sensitive. The ones who come here and are willing to suffer for the salvation of the human species truly. The more trauma the thinner the veil becomes. We call these people crazy. Yes, certainly there is hereditary disposition. But there are also those who have become so traumatized by the human experience and unable to transcend karma that they seek the simplest of means time again. The ones who are crazy are the ones throwing themselves against the wall for you lifetime after lifetime. Our unwillingness to empathize nor understand is not borne of our true selves, rather of deep untruth. The mind is refractory to change and, frankly, you, because it has learned through its own accumulation and this accruement comprises that which you forget, the reason for which ego (defender) exists at all.

What we need is radical surrender which means complete and total release unto acceptance. Defer to your best thoughts, feelings and intentions. Stay with them. Pleasurable sensation needs to be reintroduced to your body. Allow it to fill you up, and stay with it throughout any opinion piece or samskara that comes into your awareness as a wave crests and troughs. We can no longer support this matrix, both internal and its external reflection of the world. Inside we suffer and the outside is crumbling around us. We must radically accept everything, pre-conditions and current circumstances, both inside and out. Including especially what you cannot understand. Soul is the technician and the body is computer. Mind is part of the computer. It cannot fix itself. It needs the technician’s touch.

It really is just states of consciousness. Anytime you are in 3D consciousness, it does not matter how far evolved the species is, the social dynamic, or any other variables, you will be fallible. And for the ego, you will never be good enough. You will never be good enough, remember that. Keep it close to heart. When a paradigm shifts to 5D consciousness all is perfect anyways, and when you do, you will then immediately know you were always enough. And you are never weak, the ego is wrathful and strong.

Humanity is an amnesic species. Simply put, when something happens which we cannot process and integrate it is repressed by a mental filtration mechanism, and then bodily suppressed energetically. Perhaps the greatest impediment to shadow integration is an egoic neurotic necessity for goodness.

We cannot underestimate the powerful artform of distortion on this planet. Mental illness. Chaos. Trauma. Much of this is caused by dark beings and malediction. Again, we are each a collab. You must let go of the person. After all, it is only a conceptual construct, thought-form. Did you really choose it? It is not the real you. Let go of the person and come into power as consciousness, in the eye of the storm.