Life Changing Experience

I never knew that a few boxes could change my life, but on September 29th, 2019 they did. I have always prided myself on being a good reader and writer, but right now I mainly have to have someone else write while I speak because I cannot read full sentences or read what I am writing. At first it was fine because I thought it would be over in a week and there would be no dramatic problems that would cause long-lasting effects; but here I am with two vestibular therapists, one physical therapist, and a neurologist two months later (starts like the beginning of a bad joke). The worst part is that it was not even my fault.

I guess it is sort of important to tell you what happened. I was unloading boxes from a trailer at my job (FedEx Ground) when a boy came in “to give me some tips on how to unload faster.” He pulled a box from the middle and nothing fell so I thought it was safe to take a box that was not even connected to that row. I bent down and immediately I felt pressure on my neck and back of my head as thirty pounds hit me as the boxes cascaded down. Immense pain filled my body as I fell over and I had to be dug out of the mess, the worst part was that my boss did not offer for me to fill out a report at first but just asked me to get back to work. I almost thought it was a sick joke as I lay on the floor holding my head in my hands.

The constant headaches are horrible and it is not a dull ache or a front of the head deal, it is an arch through one side of my head that medication cannot fix. My neck constantly feels like someone is stepping on it and releasing only for a brief second so I can catch my breath. But the thing that makes me feel awful and stupid is that when I am asked to stand with my feet together in therapy and not move I sway back and forth and fall within ten seconds. Sometimes my walking is like a newborn deer (you know, the ones that fall over and look like bambi).

My life stopped that day, I just want my old life back and it does not seem to be changing any time soon. I just wish I could be me again, but I do not think I will ever be the same even when it goes back to normal because I have gone through so much. People say you do not remember physical pain after a few days, but I remember it and feel it everyday still.