Death

There's a saying by Lin Manuel Miranda; "Death doesn't descriminate between the sinners and the saints, it takes and it takes and it takes, yet we keep living anyways.."

Death is a normal way of life, some may say it's part of the circle, the cycle that all living things go through. But is still doesn't take away the pain and grief that comes with it. It doesn't take away the darkness and numb tiredness feeling that manages to creep into your body and soul. It just takes away a loved one, weather that be a family member, friend, or beloved pet.

I can't really explain it to you if you've never experienced loss but I'm sure everyone has at this point in their life. But that still doesn't make it any less heartbreaking or saddening to experience.

I like to remember something my speech teacher in high school told me in the first few days of his class. That you should always tell the people lose to that you love them because you never know when you're gonna get that phone call. You never know when the phone is going to ring giving the unfortunate news of someone passing. He would always bring this up to remind us of this important life lesson so we would never forget to tell them.

Life is way too short not too.

Today the phone rang for me. It was one of those phone calls that you dread getting. I guess you always know it's gonna be a shocking conversation when the person calling asks if you're driving. Luckully for me I wasn't. Even though its been almost a year it surely doesn't feel any different. Some days something will remind me of her and then the memories and tears come rushing to the for front.

For me it was my band teacher. She was like my second mom. She was there for me in times where I feel like my own mother. She give me rides home from pepband and even when we were setting up for prom for the seiniors. She helped us with out schooling when we needed it and she was always encouraging us to do what we wanted and it was amazing. She was just amazing.

It was hard to hear that she had passed. I couldn't believe it was real. I got the news at work and it hit me hard.

But then again what death doesn't.

I always had this plan in my head. Something would remind me of her and I would think, hey maybe i should call her up and see how she's doing and just catch up. But my days would go on and I'd forget to do that one small task I told myself I'd do.

So maybe, just maybe this should be a lesson to everyone, not just for me. Anyone you love or even talk to could die tomorrow. Wether that be a coworker, lover, mother or even a friend. Make that phone call, shoot that text or that email before it's too late and you'll never have the chance to do that.

Make memories and keep little mementos so you'll never forget. Becuase one of these days you're going to look back on those dayse and wish you would have done more. Made the effort to say that you were there when it mattered. It's hard I know, especially when you may be fighting with someone you love or when you aren't seeing eye to eye.

But being the bigger person and having no regrets is something someone told me once.

So make the most of today. Who knows who will be here tomorrow.