10 REASONS WHY YOUR LIFE IS A MESS

My friends always tell me that my life is perfect. It just doesn't seem that way to me. I'm not happy with anything in my life, and I can't see myself ever feeling any better.

This is where I need to start by telling you why my life is a mess. Some of these may be obvious to others, but for me, they are the true struggles that all too often go unrecognized.

1. I don't listen to my parents.

I always feel like my parents are out to get me. I never do what they want me to do. They just don't understand me and I don't understand them either.

My parents yell at me all the time for no reason, and I just can't seem to please them. I think that once I'm older and I have my own kids that I'll learn to listen to them and obey them. For now, I only listen to my friends because they tell me what to do.

2. Nobody ever wants to hang out with me.

I don't mean with the 'friends' that you have on Facebook or those kind of friends in your grade, but real friends who would do just about anything they would be asked of them to hang out with you.

My name is Sara and most people are scared of me. I don't know why they are scared of me, but there are few people who would want to be seen hanging out with me if they could avoid it at all costs.

I even tried making friends with people who I have mutual friends with, but they always have some sort of excuse.

3. All my friends are fake.

I thought I had some great friends in high school who were there for me no matter what, but when I told them that I was thinking about getting pregnant and having an abortion at my high school graduation party, all of a sudden they didn't want to hang out with me anymore.

Apparently they were more afraid of the consequences than they were that I may actually be in the process of making a terrible decision.

I was shocked, but now I realize that it's just how shy people are. They don't want to be seen talking to a pregnant girl at the party, especially one who might possibly be having an abortion.

4. My family and friends are bullies.

Usually this is just some smart ass remark they make that makes you feel bad about yourself and get's you even more frustrated with them telling you how pathetic you are in a well-timed moment.

I've done stupid things to hurt my family that I probably shouldn't have and I'm still the one to get the blame for it. I'm starting to realize that people are just jealous of me because they feel like they are not as amazing or important.

5. I don't know what's wrong with me.

I really don't know why this is so hard for me to figure out, but there's something that's driving me nuts that just won't let up, and there's nothing I can do about it.

I started getting really depressed when I was in the 2nd grade and it only got worse for me.

My parents said that I was too young to understand why I felt so bad, but now my parents are denying that there's anything wrong with me at all.

My family just says that I'm crazy and going through a phase but the truth is, it's not a phase.

6. Nobody gets me how I want them to get me.

I understand that people are not perfect, but there's something that my family and friends can't seem to understand about me. I'm always angry with them for the things I do and the things that they do to me. I don't mean to yell or be a child because it doesn't seem like any of them understand me at all.

7. Nobody understands what it's like being me.

I know that there are people who have had things happen to them and may have experienced pain more than once in their lives, but nobody really knows what it's like having so many issues going on at once.

I don't know why it's so hard for my family and friends to get me, but they are all in denial.

I thought that they were there for me and that they understood how bad the pain I was feeling was at the time, but it seems like everybody else just doesn't understand and it leaves me alone all the time.

8. Everybody is against me.

I don't know why, but it seems that nobody cares about what I'm going through in my life. They always tell me to just try and get over it and move on, but that's not how things work.

Every time I try to talk to someone about something that is bothering me, they shut me down and don't want to hear anything more.

Most of the time they just give me advice that I didn't ask for, or if they do listen to what I have to say and let me actually speak their mind, they end up yelling at me for no reason.

9. Nobody wants to talk about anything serious with me..

They always tell me to stop talking about all the bad things that I think about and do. They seem to think that if I don't talk about them, they will go away.

I know that's not true, but it's like my parents have forgotten who I am and what I've been through.

When it comes time for me to open up about what is troubling me, no one wants to hear about my thoughts or feelings because all they've ever done is told me that if I don't talk about it, then it won't be a problem anymore.

10. Nobody takes me seriously.

I hate it when people don't take me seriously. I'm not a little kid who is bratty and thinks that nobody understands me. They all think that I'm just being an idiot, but they are all wrong.

If they took the time to listen to what I had to say, they would be able to understand what true pain is like. I may be just a little girl, but I've had to deal with too much in my life.

After what happened in the past year, I know that my parents don't really understand why I'm going through so much pain, but they don't want to hear what it is that's bothering me.

Finally

When you are depressed, it is hard for other people to understand. Some of the things that you think and do may seem strange to them because they have never been in your place a place where there has been so much pain and suffering that it seems impossible to ever escape from.

If you think you may be depressed, you need to talk about what's bothering you with someone.

The problem with being depressed is that it makes us feel like no one understands the way we feel or what we are going through at the time.

That's why our relationships with others get destroyed when we don't do something about our feelings.