Turning 39

First at hand ,

I wish for the best for me to be amazing in my 39 years. I am 38 now and I want to be where I want to know will it be different or will it be the same for me when I turn 39. As I notice I had finally restarted on my own and finish what I started since and before I had many people in my ears that made me say maybe they are right ( wrong decision ). Better yet I've done it quietly .but they were watching my every move and thinking it's fuel to say fuck my hateres and to do it . It's not for me to do that. That affected me so much tthat it lead me to depression because I had allm y life from family to then some telling me I shouldn't because I didn't want to be in my state to just do what I want to do. I wanted to go far within my life .

As now I'm starting to learn I am right and suddenly the same people that realized and saw me do it suddenly now is doing it and I find it fucked up they now advancing. It's funny how I wanna change my life time and time again and then they kept pushing me back and now I'm tired of it. I pray they don't do it when I hit 39. Seems now theyare tired and wanna live their life and they now "suddenly" want to say yeahhhh you can do it now. Huh? Suddenly now you tell me I can? I did it anyway . I just had to built piece by piece and now them the same ones that are slowly dying , slowly realize they shouldn't had done it that now they had to repent for stopping what could of made them great. It wasn't for to tell them they aren't able to do and they won't be the background . no. It was for me and my sake to know for my little self, the one that had and wish they didn't exist ,but is cause they wanted to bank on them finally, wants to finally do it for me.

I pray that I will and do it without the earths of my manifestations , dreams and all that I can do it. Even if I fucking do it at 60 and finally made it. I wanted to make it because I had my reasons. I feel like Vegeta making my goddamn point in life that nobody can't tell me shit. ( I see why I like him ...well not when he was doing the foolishness in the Buu Saga ) Anyway, I know many of ya'll are gonna say well you should of done it. Well I've did alot ,but nooowww since I'm doing it time and time again while finally making my own things ... I already was ,but in pieces so they don't see and stop that too.

Ever since I want to make it on my own and also make it so much for doing what is great ,but again I had many naysayers,but I prayed for them so they can mind their own too. I had my reasons even while they were hateful. Funny how they are succeeding and I'm shaking my head cause I'm like you should of done that instead of telling me I could not. I think it's because you wanted me where you was so you can see and then say I can do it better which is stupid as it is already. It really is. You should do it and not be hateful on the other guy. Don't be mad of the other grass and think it's better than yours. Those things in other people's lives aren't better than yours. You got your own . I'm learning that and in fact learned that in my twenties when I was on my shit since then. Now I'm just getting close to my forties and was gonna do that anyway. I want to try more and many things to make a point if I have it.

Soon I will make the point ,but do not worry. This is my small rant. I do have to tell you don't let fmaily or nothing nor nobdy say you aren't the shit. You know you are. This is coming from an Aqaruius ( an Jaurary one ) . Love you. Take care of you even if they are hateful. Take care of you. You got it .