To a New year

It’s relieving to know that this year is coming to an end, and a new year is beginning. All though, it really doesn’t mean anything at all.

We all use the new year as an excuse to start fresh and start new. Put old bad habits behind us, and inhibit new good habits.

We’re all guilty of it. Even me.

Honestly, I love it though, sure we can continue going on without setting goals for ourselves, and just continue being the same but I feel like this is just the perfect time to start on a fresh page.

I’ve set some goals for myself for the new year, goals that I know I can accomplish. Goals that I have made because of all the things I learned this year.

This is just me writing the thoughts that go through my head as I think about moving on to 2023.

I’ve learned so much this past year, many mistakes were made and many lessons were put in my path to learn from.

When I think about everything that happened this past year, it feels like I was on a roller coaster that had many turns and drops that I was not expecting at all. But after each surprise turn and fall, the rollercoaster kept going, and I learned to enjoy the ride.

Super cheesy, I know.

Now that it’s coming to an end, I can’t help but feel kinda sad. Saying goodbye to everything that happened this year, but mostly, saying goodbye to 2022 me.

See, this year I have done so much, and when I say that, I mean so much for me and my soul. I took a break from life. I learned to just enjoy my life for a bit without worrying about any consequences. I’ve learned so much about myself and those around me, I met great people. I got to experience things I’ve always wanted to experience but could never do before because I felt like it was wrong to do. I was scared to be judged and to be seen as careless. But honestly this year has taught me to not care at all. I learned to just live for myself. Because time is something we will never get back, opportunities are something that won’t be there forever.

I feel as if this year was the year to make mistakes, to be careless, to live like there’s no tomorrow. And I did that. I can say that even though my life won’t be the same as it was this year, I know now how to really live. My life doesn’t have to be boring, but my life doesn’t have to be crazy. I can live in a neutral way.

Even though most people probably are not reading this far, that’s ok. I made this post for myself. But if there are people still reading, I just encourage you to also just live. Just dedicate a year or a couple months to just you. Where nothing else matters. Because when you look back at your life later, you want to say you actually lived. If we die tomorrow, why worry today. Time and memories are rare. What I said to myself this whole year was, money will always come back, we work hard to make it. But time is something we never get back, so why not spend time for once to make great memories that will last forever.

I am honestly thankful to have lived past this year, and I am so thankful for the beautiful souls I met this year. Even those who aren’t a part of my life anymore. I learned the most from you. I’m also thankful for the relationships that have grown with me this year as well. We stay strong.

But anyway, here’s to a new year. 2023.