The Struggle of being a writer

I have recently written a story about a young teenage girl and her rush with possession and having to come to terms with it. The book is called The Prince Within, it was self-published. I paid for this book to be published with a company, that let say I should have done more research on.

I was very naive and new to the game of writing and publishing. I had to learn the hard way on marketing my book and trying to sell the book. needless to say, I did not do very well in that department, and I was lost. I also didn't know that I was supposed to be trying to get a literary agent as well. My book was release in 5/2020 and I only sold 50 books.

I have to say I have a great support system within my family support because they were the ones that bought my book, I did more research on how to get my book sold in bookstores and send out emails, but they were not interested. This got very discouraging, I think it might have been the way I was verbalizing my request.

Now trying to get as literary agent is a whole other ball game, they are ruthless. I think have sent out query letters and synopsis to about 39 agents and they have all turned me down. Now some of the agents are personable but others are just dry and sometimes I wonder if they are even reading any of it. I have written my query letter and synopsis three times thinking maybe it was the way I was writing it. Them I began to wonder if I was even a good writer at all.

There were days I wanted to quit and throw my hands up and say this just isn’t for me, my dream of being a well-known writer is just that a dream. Then I said to myself what will I be showing my children? I will be showing them it is okay to give up when it gets too hard. No, that is not me I always have been determined to show the world that I can make it happen. I want to show my kids that working hard, and determination is what going to make dreams come true.

there was one thing I didn't understand was if I was such a bad writer that I couldn't get a literary agent, then why are publishing company's wanting to publish my book. I written a sequel to the book The Prince Within, and it has been picked up by another publishing agency that I did some research on and are pretty good, but the good part is that they are going to pay for half the publishing. I will not lie at first, I thought that off course they think my writing is good I’m paying for it, but this new publishing company stated they will pay half of my publish because they believe in my writing now, I do not think that my writing is good.

unfortunately, I still can't find a literary agent. Do I feel a little discouraged? I have to say yes, I never thought it would be this hard, but I do have to admit that I will never stop writing. I am planning to keep sending my query letter and synopsis to literary until one gives in and accepts my writing. Writing is what I was meant to do. for now, I leave you knowing that I found a better publishing agency but not a literary agent, also I will not give up what my dream of becoming a known author.