Nostalgia & Worries

I've been lately thinking about food from America. For living in America all my life, the convince of using Doordash became easy for me. I'm not talking about the convince of this fad.

I find this very convenient one word, 'instacart' oh my god I miss that. I miss ordering my groceries at an affordable price, with a affordable delivery fee.

Moving forward in my foodie porn nostalgia I will go through my top stuff I miss making and ordering from certain places.

1: I miss Grilling my food: I miss grilling angus burgers, grilling hot dogs. Lemme go into more depth I miss waking up early getting into my car going grocery shopping: picking up angus burger patties, super hot dogs when you bite into it, it's like you are biting into meat and the condiments.

Oh god when you make these on the grill with smoked charcoal and a great grill god your mouth can sure water. For me I used to grill all year round, well I would sometimes because the old man would say only a man can do this. When that's not true. I would rather stay in the garage on a snowy or rainy day and grill food.

I guess a part of me misses America the affordable stuff. The whole not being in a small house. Hubby said this would be temporary, but I'm afraid it will be permanent.

I'm so hell bent on winning the Get Comfortable Challenge, I want to win first place so bad.

I have no luxury for doubts, I want to know that I did something for me. I want to shout "I won First Place." It's what I want. I will do whatever it takes.

Every time I find myself doubting I stop completely replace it with a thought of positivity.

I miss driving spontaneously to random places, the last time I drove somewhere it was a small road trip to Akron Canton International Airport. To test my car to it's limits. It made the trip, but it just feels good to remember those solo times.

I only had to pay 15.00 a month for my insurance with Liberty Mutual Insurance.

2: I miss my Friends: I really miss Callie and Billie. I miss seeing Mary my best friend. When I go back to my state I plan on surprising her with a visit. I've known her since I was in middle school that girl feels like a sister, quarrelling or not I will surprise her with a visit.

3: I miss driving to Marc's: I miss driving to Marc's grocery store to pick out desserts, snacks, and more. It's the little things you miss.

4: I Miss Driving to Amish Country: I miss driving to the apple orchard, and picking up the best snacks: chocolate, cheese, pepperoni, and seasonings.

5: The Library: I miss going to the library roaming around find something to read. I've not read anything good since the House of Night series.

6: A House of Our Own: I want to have a house of our very own.

7: My Special Spot Mill Stream Park: I had a special place I loved to walk and think.

8: The Ashery Country Store is in Fredericksburg, Ohio: I used to go with the old man seemed like every time we argued he would take me there. I didn't know this was a way of him showering me with gifts like most abusers do.

I've learned so many lessons this whole year. Some tough, some not so. I learned who my real friends are. It's been rough you know but all and all with these hard lessons I love it and wouldn't change anything at all.