New People

I’m sorry but when did I become everyone’s therapist? Why is everyone coming to me? I honestly could not care less about everyone else’s problems. I don’t see them anywhere when I have a problem. It just seems a little fucked up that the same people who are constantly using me for help are never really there when I need the same thing. And why does it seem like it’s always a competition of who has it worse? It just really bothers me that, I always have to be there for certain people, but I can’t tell them about any of the problems I’m having. I can’t talk to them the same way because my problems aren’t as bad. I’m ready to start pulling away. I’m ready to surround myself with people who are willing to put in the same effort. I’m done feeling like and being everyone’s last priority.

It’s about time that I put myself first. It’s time for me to start returning energy. I’m going to start treating them the way they treat me. As painful as it might be it’s probably for the best that I end these relationships. I don’t know why I continue to let people like this in my life. You know, the type of people who take a mile when you give an inch. Yet, they’re the same type of people who wouldn’t even cross a puddle for you. It’s time for me to be honest with not only myself, but also with everyone else. I need to start being honest to the point that it’s almost mean. Life is to long to be miserable and surrounded by people who I don’t even like anymore. It’s not worth the stress or annoyance.

I’m trying to work on myself and grow; and I can’t do that if I’m around people who aren’t willing to do the same thing. Sometimes I think it would just be best if I left all together. Maybe if I moved where no one knew who I was. I honestly like being alone. I like the solitude and maybe that’s what I’m needing. I am exhausted. I just want to be left alone. I miss not being reliable or responsible. Life is to long to continuously be this miserable all the time. It’s definitely not worth the time or energy anymore.

I will never fully understand why people are the way they are. I don’t understand why people are asking for my advice if they aren’t going to listen to it. I will continue to give the same advice if they continue to sit in the same situation with the same people. I am not going to change my mind about it. People need to stop asking for my advice if they aren’t going to listen to it. From now on I’m going to start telling people that I don’t know what to say.

I need to start doing things for myself. I need to focus on taking care of myself. No more worrying about if other people are taken care of. It’s time to let people fend for themselves. I have nothing left to give to them. I’m all out of good vibes and positive energy. I’m going to take this time to recharge myself. I wonder how many people will be around if I start to make myself scarce. Maybe it’s time for me to start being as selfish as everyone else. I don’t have the energy to try with people anymore. Honestly I just want to disappear into the forest and become a troll. Maybe then everyone would leave me alone.