My Cherie, no more

To the team at Claymore House:

It is with visible regret that I must inform you of my resignation effective immediately. I know the timing is not the best considering I’m walking away from on-going responsibilities and major events in motion, but this is an urgent matter.

It gives me some anxiety to have to step down from the hybrid and multitasking roles I have performed for over 25 years, as it is so deeply ingrained in my psyche to run at high speed with efficiency that this “hard stop” is mentally propelling me into an invisible brick wall. I find myself questioning my motives, reviewing my options and I wind up directly back in the same spot.

The demand on my time has left me depleted of energy and focus, with no set goals, no dreams, no ambition. This is unacceptable, and I must regroup while I still have potential to set it all right.

My loyalty will be called into question, no doubt, but it cannot be helped. Unfortunately, I have no choice.

I cannot answer another question poised simply because someone is too lazy to figure it out on their own.

I cannot jump into action whenever called on, only to discover my efforts were not acknowledged or appreciated.

I cannot continue to stand by and watch self-serving indulgencies gain fame and fortune, while I have no personal life, with no true benefit either in pay or perks or reward. This is not sour grapes, it’s pure truth set before you.

There are many examples among the staff of poor treatment within these walls. I have not suffered the abuses that others have, but to turn my back on such indecencies is not possible anymore. I bring this forward in the hope that those of you with empathy will review common practices and take steps to rectify these issues post-haste.

Should you require details as to these allegations, I refer you to Mr. Burgess, head groom. He is aware of all my reflections, albeit he is not in a position to retire from service as I am.

I know this will cause a ripple in the lives of many of you who have counted on me to keep things in perfect order. Any “suddenly” cannot be digested easily, but I trust the void will be quickly filled and to everyone’s satisfaction. Less strict measures of perfection may be in order, as not many individuals would have the constitution mentally and physically to do what I have done in this employment. That is not vanity on my part, but absolute fact.

Further expectation of superior care and service is now terminated, and I will not look back once this letter is dispensed. I require no letters of recommendation either, as I have no intention of ever seeking another role in this line of employment.

With that said, I do thank you all for giving me the opportunities to learn and grow, even enjoy the journey, the pressure, and the occasional friendship. It was not for nothing; it was my choice. And I’m certain I will miss the race on some level. Engrained habits are hard to break, and I pray I will recover and replace those behaviors with positive actions to improve my situation.

Please respect my privacy as I move into the next phase of life. My immediate travels will disallow responses, as I am bound for the Caribbean in a mere 8 hours. Any remaining compensation can be sent via cheque to my PO Box or direct pay to my Barclays account.

With sincere gratitude and great relief, C'est La Vie!

Cherie McDaniels