Music is my Life and Love

Throughout my life since the age of six I can remember playing the piano for the first time, the feel of the ivory keys against my fingers felt amazing. My idol at the time was Billy Joel I just loved the sound of the piano. I took lessons for many years. As I got older, I decided to join the school band by playing the flute, the following year I chose the trumpet. When I hit high school, I decided to drop band and I started to sing in the choir. I since then have had nothing but love for music. With listening to it and playing it as well as singing I could not feel a deeper love for anything. I am now forty-two and I am in the progress of going back for music production. I love to write lyrics mix beats and soon I will be learning how to put my lyrics and music together. I can feel the music flowing through my bones. When I close my eyes, I do not just hear the music I can see it too. It is almost like I am floating along the colorful music swirls in my mind. Music makes me feel like I am in a whole different world. No matter the mood I am in it can calm me, make me cry, get me revved up to want to just dance or sometimes it can make me angry. Music can make you feel what the artist is feeling almost like a tv show you can feel what the people are feeling. As for me music just calms my nerves and puts me in a better mood because I listen to all different types of styles and genres of music, I mainly choose songs that I can relate to. Music is my life always has been I love to listen to it, play it as well as sing which maybe one day I will have the courage to post a video of my singing. In fact, I tried out for Americas Got Talent last year and made it but when I got the call to go to New York City I could not make it due to two fractured knees. I was very disappointed. I tried again for this current season, but I just chose the wrong song for the director’s cut and did not know that I could not sing with my music, so it was a little nerve racking for me since I was practicing so hard with the music with me. Some songs I can sing without music but when it comes to opera, I need the music with me. I will try again next season knowing now what I know I will choose a song that I know I can sing without music backing me up. I am always the one sitting in the car singing and putting music on in the shower and singing in there too. To me music really can save the soul. It can make things hurt less, maybe more at times, but it will always calm me in the end put me back into a normal state of mind and less stressed. Going through so much with my own problems and now a relative of my boyfriend stole my keys and took my car then she crashed and totaled my car. A suspended license and no insurance of her own now leaves me without a car. All my doctor appointments had to be canceled and the car was not paid off, so my insurance paid off the car and the deductible which now leaves me with nothing. No money no life now also an eviction notices to rid myself of her. I am tired of being nice and well now I am going to just concentrate on me myself and I. My writing and my schoolwork. I am hoping once she is gone my life will get better and my relationship since she had weaseled herself into this house and our life my relationship has almost hit rock bottom. So, with the little strength I have left I shall depend on my music to get me through this and move forward and onward and be the happy woman I used to be.