Journal Entry 2-15-2021

4:03 a.m.

I am up getting ready for work. Extremely tired still not wanting to get motivated to go to Whirlpool. But need the money right.

Wish I made a living doing what I love.

Writing, my passion. It will soon happen one day. It is ok, to dream a little dream.

So last night my tooth was hurting real bad.

No pain meds. In the house, I ask my ten-year-old daughter to pray for me.

I swear it felt like numbing meds. Instantly went on my tooth. Jesus took the pain away it was so amazing.

I just had to share how many he is.

4:12 a.m.

No pain still in my mouth.

Thank you, Jesus. I want to go cruel back up in my bed with the silky on my lips. Yes I know I am thirty-five,e years old and still need my silky. Not only is it relaxing but it is soothing, like a mesmerizing feeling.

I have been that way since I was a child.

Wearing a jacket or a coat with the silky instantly I am relaxed. I use my daughter's tinker bell sleeping bag. I like that kid on Charlie Brown, I will carry it to room at times. I did buy her another one I made up for it. She got a bigger cooler one.

My hands are already going numb ugh, I hate this. Well, since I have been back working there at Whirlpool it is every day with my hands. Yesterday, the left hand was on fire. It sucks but, I do it for my babies.

4:30 a.m.

Okay, I now have to get ready. Wow! Time flew this morning maybe it will go fast on the clock, but knowing wanting that time to go by. It will move so slowly but making that money right.

5:45 a.m.

Now here at work waiting for the tract To start at six. Feeling like I had forgotten something.

5:36 p.m.

I am home from work and it is cold outside.

Cold, like freezing rain we are expected to get Snow. Chuck's line, is working tomorrow parts can't make it due to the weather.

I just keep thinking if the roads are iced what am I to do? We live on a hill.

Yeah, I live in south town and I don't think anyone made a deal with Heat Miser, for us to get snow.

I am worried about my cousin who lives in Alabama and they have ice. Some places are without power.

She isn't answering any of my messages.

Today, at work I kept thinking about my grandparents and how much I miss them.

They would be proud of what I have accomplished on vocal. Even though it isn't much it is something and it is a start.

Reminsing, back to when I was a child and going out of town with them. Going to my Aunt Dee Dee's house in Savannah, GA, or to my uncle Lee's in ILLINOIS. How I also remember how funny grandpa was.

Thinking about him asking where I was?

Was I coming? How he sits by the door waiting on me. I didn't have time to work so late in the evening and coming home dealing with the babies who had school the next day.

Wishing I had one more kiss I one more hug.

One more time hearing

Grandpa says, "Oh Man!"

As he got excited, Grandma now oh man, she loved us and would do anything for you. Grandma didn't like us around too much. Which I don't blame her.

Right before she got sick she and I started spending our Saturdays together.

We both enjoyed every bit of it.

I might tell some stories about them another day. Not right now and I am sorry.

Well, my loves I hope you enjoy the read

I hope every one of you has a wonderfully blessed day.