Insanity at it best

I have always felt like the past was nothing more than a dream. The memories that shape me, mold me into who I am and what I believe. Life is a mosaic of images and feelings that offer a truth about how I got here, even if details are blurred with time. As the years pass, I realize, I am nothing more than the experiences that made me into who I am. I know there is pain in life but growing from that pain can lead you to who you are as a person. I learned this lesson long ago.In my darkest memories where the pain is deepest that lesson sits. I sat and listened when the world spoke. I watched and waited for the truth to show itself. I survived the obstacles placed within my path because I refused to stop or give up even though there were times when I wanted too. Plenty of times the emotional pain was greater than the physical pain. Plenty of times I wanted to end my life. Plenty of times I tried and failed.

One day I stopped trying and sat in silence. I didn't listen to those who talked around me. I tuned out the voice in my head. I ignored the thoughts that crossed my mind and simply sat in silence. At times the noise was too much but the silence can also be loud when it has something to say. My mind's silence was louder than the noise of the outside world. I never knew that was possible until I sat in the silence of my mind for a while. The longer I sat the louder the silence got. The silence screamed inside of my head. The mind has always been a strange thing, one most don't understand. I heard the screaming and tried to think only for my mind to show me things I never knew. The knowledge the silence gave me was something I asked for and now that I have it I wonder why I asked for it at all. Knowledge, true knowledge opens your eyes to the truths around you. I knew how bad the world could be. I watched it with open eyes. Did I truly see it for what it was? No, I was blinded by the lies they taught me. Blinded like a fool who poked their own eyes out. It took me years to clear the clutter out that they had forced inside my mind. Now I keep my kids from being brainwashed like the rest. I won't allow the world to make my kids mean or hateful.

Let me run the world and see how fast things change. Instead of putting roads down, I'd be tearing roads up, in order to put down dirt and grass.. Instead of cars, planes, and rockets being used all the time people would be walking, riding bikes, scooters, golf carts, dirt bikes, 4 wheelers, hell even boats could move us around with less impact on the planet. Do you know how easy life would be if people would stop being so greedy? If people would stop looking for luxury and start looking for sustainability. Instead of building more buildings and spending more money, I'd be tearing more buildings down to clear the skylines of debris and free up the skies for the aviation animals. Instead of cutting down trees and flattening mountains to make room for condos and shopping centers, I would plant more trees along with more edible greenery to feed those who are hungry and to allow those who have no house to find shelter beneath the leaves of big trees.. we use to find warmth from vents in caves that attached to volcanoes and fresh water from natural springs coming from mountains.

How easy would life be again if we could just walk around with our relatives, friends, and neighbors all day cleaning and fixing things.. the freedom of a stress free and peaceful life with something to do instead of sitting around, isn't that the dream? Wasn't that the American dream? I guess that dream got twisted and torn down and made into something else just like everything else in this world. Can they really call me the stupid one? Yeah, but who is brainwashed here, not me that's for sure. I may live like the rest of those around me but that's only because nobody will allow me to live like I want to, especially with my children. Is this the world everyone has been asking for? A world full of selfish, hateful, inconsiderate, violent, and non caring humans with a self destructive mindset. Your thoughts speak to the universe louder than your words ever could. So, are we ready to change yet? Are we ready to be better people or do we continue down the path that we're on and destroy ourselves and our planet in the end? I for one would love to live to see the future because I think it will be great but if no one else wants to live it right then why should I remain when it only makes me unhappy.