Inner Demons

Inner Demons

Daniella Farras

July 27 2021

I’m in too deep

Can’t wake up.

The agony is way too real.

Someone come save me.

Am I God's gift of eternal light?

Why do I feel so helpless?

The fear is getting profusely worse in her inner sanctum.

She flinched in her various racing thoughts.

Love doesn’t come easy for her.

Yet she tries super hard to understand her soul.

She’s gotten much better. But the real problem is her insecurities, they give her life anxiety and fear. She knows she has to learn to trust herself and her future. It’s not that she doesn’t trust herself or her passion. She just has so much trouble getting to know others. Fearing of losing ones she loves. So many people in her life she’s gotten to know and they’ve always gone right from under her. And she never did anything; it was just fate coming and snatching it away.

Her inner demons are tearing her up and down. She was told she could do anything she put her mind to.

Yet she, for some reason, didn’t believe it. She knew people cared about her yet she was scared to open up to them. At the fear of losing people she cared about. She knew that she was being silly, ridiculous rather. But she couldn’t help it, she couldn’t shake the fear of being alone.

Love always seemed to have time for a little while then she would be too afraid to get close to the other person and she’d just leave not knowing how to handle her emotions. Hopefully this time this person in her life can and would help her to see she isn’t insecure or insane or alone. Only to show her that she’s beautiful and strong and that she is a fierce woman who knows what she wants in life and that’s happiness. She wants happiness more than anything in the world. But can she handle herself getting closer and closer to her love and learn to live with accepting herself for who she is inside without any fears, without any doubts. Then again no one is perfect but she must learn to accept herself for who and what she is. Even though she’s been through hell and back she still has to deal with her struggles as a whole and eat at the bad times and make them feel like they’re a triumph instead of a trigger. She also needs to realize that things happen and we can’t stop them from happening because life throws curveballs at you, you just have to learn how to hit them out of the park. It’s not always easy but remember that you all are beautiful and you all are very lucky and special god made us with every intent for us to succeed and that’s what we try to do every day to improve our life or ourselves or our relationship with the ones we love. We gotta be there for one another and when we fall we need to be there to pick each other up. I have my doubts about whether or not I’m enough but I know that you and I have the power and the will and the desire as well as the determination to do amazing things and being a woman is hard enough but don’t let anyone ruin your day or your dreams , by telling you “you can’t do that!” I need to learn as well as everyone else to be true to yourself and you will go far with your heart and your love and passion just be yourself and not who others want you to be. You are enough and your so amazing I give all of you props you too guys as well as girls you become the you, you always wanted to be!!