I AM TRYING!!

Yet it already has.

It overtook my stability and outlook on myself and my life too.

It has ruined me to a very extreme bad extent and it continues to ruin me the more and more that i choose to be kind and beautiful.

These people dismiss kindness and consider kindness an issue of weakness.

There is nothing i hate more than a person always ready to hurt someone. The ones that believe being "tough" and being able to fight with their fists makes them a winner?

I highly disagree with that! I think being "tough" & "being able to mess anybody up" is a weak perception of handling problems. Its called use your voice to express the issue and then use your ears to listen & witness the possible comeback or hear out its possible solution to your bitter problem!

In not innocent cases i can understand the use of violence but that doesn't justify the fact someone hurt and the other person got hurt.

The ugly rats that believe being "thug" is cool. Or is any type of respectable. Or is anything less than a generational curse. They are all dumb and foolish especially those that carry weapons and enjoy causing conflict just because they own that weapon.

The evil, ugly, hurtful, and horrible way of being "enemies" of mine think defeating me and getting me to act violently is a holy moment. But was it actually? when i went to bad extreme lengths to set them straight?

They believe upsetting me and hounding me down constantly justifies their tactic at angering me to see what i will do. Which honestly was an extreme measure that can't be undone and its no ones fault except for the people who i have had to tell multiple times to leave me alone.

It always makes me sad and it will always make me shy away from attending my duties of fulfilling attention for myself. Attention including things such as by having little bits of censored appreciation or unclean judgement that is based upon other's thoughts, actions and motives which they will always lay down in front of us to show us something worthy or not so worthy.

"DON'T LET THE UGLINESS IN OTHER"S KILL THE BEAUTY IN YOU" is said so perfectly because just because the ugly hearted or ugly minded people work to hard lengths and live their lives precisely devising ways to continue destroying the planet by them being evil enough that people no longer have a faith in the world or the life they are living.

Whether there is good people feeling the repercussions of what the evil people do or have done/been doing or by the evil people watching and admiring their messes that need to not; its still an act of terrorism.

Terrorism that can't necessarily be fixed or prevented. But terrorism that needs to be shown and taught to the public that way many become more aware and maybe for even a handful of these people that those people may start watching their actions and motives so they can quit being evil!

I AM TRYING!!!

I am trying to be a voice of reason yet for some reason nobody that is in my targeted audience wants to listen? It's all so wreckful and horrible off these people that carry on living with evil in their hearts and evil in their minds. And since they continue to be this way; they plague our lives and keep generating generational curses!

I am honestly kind of tired of trying but why should i give up? When there is a tiny audience of people that love what i have to say? It's somewhat worth the efforts but also it feels like im trying for nothing? I just wish people could keep both an opened mind and an opened heart to the things i declare and actually start to change their lives by doing as i say!