From the sticks to the six

I laugh when people ask me "why would you ever leave such a beautiful town for a big city?" It's actually quite simple. You see, I have spent every waken second of my 27 years of life living in a small secluded town. I don't know how may of you have actually heard of "Bobcaygeon", or how about the famous band, The Tragically Hip, who sang a song called "Bobcaygeon?... "It was in Bobcaygeon, I saw the constellations reveal themselves one star at a time." Anything? No big deal! Back to my story.

After spending my entire life in a small town, literally with nothing, just a small retirement town, turning a bit ghetto with the younger generations growing up and with this new apparent "deadly virus" going around (im scepticle clearly about how deadly it really is). Yes, absolutely in seniors, as i witnessed that and how fast it effected my residents working in the first long term care home in Ontario to get hit with Covid 19.

Working in a home, with very little resources, not knowing anything about Covid 19 is not a cool situation for anyone to be in. It's actually terrifying, and it's terrifying for the residents. They know what's going on in the world, and not knowing what can happen, and preparing yourself for the worst... No one should ever have to live like that, its heartbreaking. Long story short, after months of our home battling, and sticking together, and being eachothers support through the losses we beat the Covid outbreak, and it was time to hang up my boxing gloves and step away from Long Term Care for a while. It was the hardest thing i've ever done, working through that outbreak, having my 6 year old daughter living with my grandparents, to keep her safe, while my mom, aunt and I roomed together as we all worked at Pinerest together, The only way I was able to see my daughter through all those months was through face-time calls, and window/ patio distance. There was no way in hell I was going to jeporadize her getting sick. Shes a fighter, and fought her own battles at sick kids for a few years, the last thing we needed was for her to get sick.

I took a sick leave shortly after declaring outbreak over. I took off to Toronto to isolate myself for 14 days to be safe, and reconnect with the man I thought, maybe will always think of as my true love, the one I was meant to be with. There was four years of a relationship with him prior to me taking off to the city. We were split for a year, and I was actually seeing one of his friends, who was a lot older than me, like 20 years older than me... when I came to Toronto, to find my long time lover boy, and let me tell you how amazing it was the first couple weeks, than things quickly starting going sideways as usual, and I should have known it was going to end up this way, but when you love someone the way we love each other, its sickening how many times you will go back and forth to the same old games. The love we had, the best way to describe it was like Harley Quinn and Joker kind of love. We did crazy things together, we were a team, it was all about him and I. If you keep following my page, you will hear so much more about how the two of us built our lives, and watched them come crashing down real quick to where we are at now. It wasn't all fun and games, it wasn't all love and romance, it wasn't all just the connection we had for each other but there is so much more that broke me down enough to prepare me to talk about my life, and whats up. This is just some little run down post to get you all a but of info about me, and who I was to become the lady I am now writing this.

I am not with this person anymore, but doesn't mean I won't always be there for him, even after everything if he were to call me up. He would say the same thing. Currently, he's not around right now, and who knows truly if he will be any time soon, or if he will be gone for a long long time, But I do like to think this may be my opportunity to finally be free from him, and never look back, but part of me will always feel like I can never really let him go, that he will always need me. You need to understand the relationship, in order to understand what exactly I am talking about. Bless his soul, and I hope this will only better him.

Now me, I am just a single momma, trying to build a new life for my daughter and I, and of course all our fur babies. Picking up and moving my life from Bobcaygeon to Toronto like nothing, I was here for 2 weeks, and all of a sudden i had an apartment, and my life was turning back around and I was not looking back.

I have been living in Toronto now since June 2020, and I love it, I don't know if I could ever move back to the country to be honest. My daughter loves it as well, and she will be moving down here soon we hope. Long stroy short, due to her health issues, she was safer to continue school in Bobcaygeon rather than in Toronto. It was a hard decision but we had to do what was best for her. Due to covid, I have been unable to find a job, and life has been hard, new city, not knowing anyone here, being alone.

But that's just a new door opened, for new beginnings, new adventures, and a new me. I hope you guys enjoy my blog, and have a good evening :)

xoxo