3 Moves I Made To Change My Life

I had always been the type of person who wanted things picture-perfect, perfect hairdressing, smart clothing and I kept a check on my health. I had never seen myself going out of shape or being messy around.

I was the kind of person who wanted to look perfect and be everyone's favorite. Saying no to someone had never been in my dictionary. But, over a couple of years, I finally grew up. I realized that the world isn't as sweet as my voice sounds, and I should learn the rules to live in this pitch as it should be.

You know it never realizes until you finally face the consequences. No matter what you do and how much you value someone. If they have this instinct of cruelty. They will show you their true colors today or tomorrow, which happened to me.

I won't lie that I cried for months, and I had this weird sensation to pack things up and leave, and that's what I did in an emotional/mental way. I packed my emotions, the caring side, the miss perfect crown on the bag and threw it far away in the sea. I changed myself, and I had never felt this good and easy in my life before.

I Stop Pressurizing Myself

The day when I stopped pressuring myself was the day when I found the real me. It's totally fine to break the rules sometimes, and I had no freaking' idea how exciting it would be to break one until I did it.

Doing the forbidden things is like jumping off a cliff with a parachute. You can feel your knees going weak, your palms getting sweaty, and you're kind of screaming to yourself to give up and to turn around and leave, but I choose to close my eyes and jump.

And the moment I jumped, I had never felt this alive before. Telling you to break the rules is not like doing the forbidden things but the things you're eligible for and still trying to be a sweet little brat.

I Start Building Confidence On Myself

The moment my eye specialist told me no more contact lenses now was the day I didn't know my life was about to change. I don't know how many people out there have this thing, but contact lenses were a huge part of my personality.

And when that part of life arrived, I had to go everywhere with my glasses on (still). That was a quite terrible part of my life. Whenever I receive an invitation, the bubbles of depression build up in my stomach and I used to cry, being insecure about myself.

It stayed like that for months until I forgave myself for being this hard on me. I look great in those glasses, and I don't care what the heck people think about me. This is the phase of my life, and it won't stay like this forever.

Pushed Myself Towards Betterment

For as long as I remember, I kept myself on a diet most of the time and always focused on being the prettiest. But, you know when you lose yourself, you don't care what you look like. I lost myself when reality hit me, and it stayed like that for a long time until I didn't recognize the girl I looked in the mirror.

The fact saddened me. I was scared, and I was angry. But, I knew I couldn't stay like this for life, and I couldn't let go of the time I have today. But, I was too out of stamina to make any move. So, I started taking baby steps to get back to how I used to be. But this time I tried to be the person, who wants to make an effort for herself and herself only, who doesn't have any concern about what anyone else think about her.