Persuading myself to buy a Freewriter

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I had initially set up this account, to help me justify my impending purchase of a Freewrite Traveler. Am I a writer? Not really, lol. Do I need it? Maybe? But if we are being honest here, it's a no (even though a small part of me is screaming "maybe!!!" right now). I’m trying to come up with some creative ways to help me rationalise my impending purchase.

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But who really is a writer? A person who calls writes in their journal, or the person who intentionally writes a thought piece and publishes it to the world.

Perhaps I am the latter, because after all I am a scientist who writes papers to publish it. I also help others to write their papers as a medical writer. But that’s not that fun, right? It’s only interesting to a very micro platform.

But I am also the former, but the person who verbal diarrheas (stream of consciousness, if you want to put it in a more demure manner) in their journal to get things out of my head. While I wouldn’t say the things that I write in my journal are particularly thought-provoking. I am low-key embarrased to share my thoughts because they can sometimes seem so trivial. If trivial bad things can bring you tons of stress over a long period of time, who’s to say trivial things may also bring about entertainment for myself and others over time.

So I decided I should start writing and sharing my thoughts. Doesn’t quite matter who reads it, whether it is good or not. My resolution here is that I would also be able to reflect a little deeper about my trivial thoughts, and what do they tell me about myself. Let’s try to go with the idea of being more introspective.

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Ok so let’s go back to the original cause of setting up this account. I wanted to get the Freewriter because it promises me distraction-free writing. In order to ‘pay’ for the Freewriter potentially through my writing, is simply to publish.

What would I primarily use my Freewrite for? To be honest, it’s a bit laughable but I intended it to help me journal more frequently and deeply. Do I also currently journal regularly? NO! Therefore, the justification really is not sufficient enough for me to sanely purchase the Freewrite

This whole period of waffling around and finding ways to justify the purchase is really a sign that I have a deeper underlying problem, the problem of wanting too many material items. To be honest, even after sitting on it for several days, the desire to get it is still strong but I know it would ultimately be a white elephant lost in the depths of my room. I have too much stuff that I don't use often enough, and my room is a testament to that. Dare I say, the only gadget that has super low cost per use in my room is my Steamdeck...

As I continue to pen my thoughts here on this site, I'm sure I will continue to think about the Freewrite and contemplate if I should get it. For a change, I am challenging myself to write without having to have the Freewrite. For real, it's really not that hard for me to keep writing here on my laptop, so it really isn't about having the right tools, but having the intention and resolution to write.

So here's to the impending ramblings to come, as I share my random thoughts to the internet, shouting into a void of nothingness because I'm pretty sure this piece would just disappear into oblivion. But yay, I did it, I penned something and I published it. It's going somewhere?

This has been a highly incoherent piece, and I'm not sure why you chose to read this entire thing, but hopefully it has amused you regarding how my insane brain works to justify my purchases, and how it led to me starting this account. Toodles, see you later.