Brain vs Heart

Fighting yourself isn't as easy as it seems. It's like being on top of a cliff where my brain will say "Jump" but my heart will counter with "Stop, you're scared". The only time my brain and heart work together is when I have a parachute with me and if a bear is coming towards me. The constant battle between the brain and the heart is like life itself. They can either connect like magnets or go on their separate ways like Paul Walker and Vin Diesel in the Fast and Furious 7 movie.

The brain and heart are two separate organs but they are the most dominant in decision making. That is why it is hard to make a decision when the two are not meeting in the middle. This usually happens in a relationship, especially in a toxic one. Let me show you a conversation from my perspective between the two in a love scenario.

There was this girl who shall not be named. We were in love with each other, but she didn't know yet at the time. She's not perfect, but she is a beautiful living thing. But sometimes, the beauty is only on the outside. On the inside, it's a cold and dark world. My depression is brighter than that. Anyway, before I knew what was inside of her, we went out a couple of times and went on adventures. It was fun in the beginning, but I can see that she is slowly bringing out her true form. She does not pay for anything at all, always asks for money, and spends more time on her phone when we are together. We both got our ups and downs but her down is rock bottom. We broke up after 7 months because she took too much of my money and I felt used. After that, there was a conversation happening inside of me.

Heart: I want her back.

Brain: No. She did you wrong.

Heart: But I love her.

Brain: No you don't.

Heart: Yes I do. I can't imagine my life without her.

Brain: Yes you can. You're just scared to be alone again.

Heart: *beats louder to overpower the brain*.

Brain: Ugh fine. Have it your way.

Heart: Yes!

I reached out to her after 2 days and I asked if she wanted me back. To my surprise, she said yes and my heart was pounding with happiness. But my brain knows that she only said yes because now she knows that she can use me again and that I can be taken advantage of. We went back to going on adventures like hikes, swimming, and dating again. But then it all went back to the same results as the first time. My relationship with her did not even last for a month. Then came another conversation inside of me.

*A few weeks later after being used by her (again)*

Heart: *gets broken*.

Brain: Damn it! What did I tell you?!

Heart: *sobs while breaking into pieces*.

Brain: Let this be a lesson learned.

Heart: I know! It's hard to let go.

Brain: Just think about something else other than her. It's not the end of the world. There's always someone out there that will be meant for you and we will show her that she isn't a loss to us. *While preparing for the revenge arc*

Something came up to me when I was writing this story. I realized that the brain is a thought and the heart is an emotion. If they are combined, then it makes it easier to decide what you want to do. Unless you are a serial killer and you thought about killing and your heart beats with excitement and now you have to think about what tools to use, when is the perfect time, who is the target, if they have powerful connections, and the best place to do it. But I don't know how serial killers operate and this is just me giving my two cents from watching crime shows.