You Can't Hurt My Feelings

The year was 1977 and in the chilly AZ month of December. I was born. lol. But, I wasn't just born I was born to two Aries. First let me say that astrology or horoscope was a forbidden idea in my home growing up but, I seemed to have learned about it eventually in my early adult years. Even though I'm not hard core into it I can definitely see alot of characteristics in individuals with basic understanding of a certain sign. Back in 1998 I read a book that talked about each sign and each sign as a child. Well it never dawned on me this would be a good idea to understand your child from a young age.

I was born to two Aries.... does anyone have any idea the danger to this combo? lol two fire signs creating a fire sign. My parents both of Hispanic descent and very much old school with old customs. Someone was definitely looking out for me because after I realized this I understood so much more about my upbringing.

First and foremost I wasn't brought up the way I should have been for a young growing Sagg. I was pretty much not able to go anywhere.... Now as an adult I can understand my frustration and sadness when I was young because I needed adventure and the ability to explore and do things to learn and build my personality. Having an Aries latina mother was hard. SO HARD that instead of guiding me and growing me she was hindering me by setting rules and limits of what I could and couldn't do. My Aries father however was strict but more on the chill side just don't catch them on a bad day because just go bury yourself. Their temper was one thing their over protectiveness was another. I knew growing up there was so much more to this than to doing chores. In my young life I was able to go roller skating, join band and girl scouts. I was never able to spend the night at any friends house. I can count the many times I was allowed on one hand.

My mothers upbringing was not a normal one and had a lot of trauma and early responsibilities in her young life. My father lost his mother in his infant years and was raised by his older sister. Both missing an important component of life; nurturing and love.

Needless to say I was being molded into a solid humble human who had to fend for herself with no guidance due to the overworked parents that would loose their cool at one another for anything that would set either one of them off. My mother short fused and my dad more reasonable with a demon outcome if he was tested. Meh... then its me. The non giver of two or more sh*** to any f*cks around me. I can say I am grateful for this creation because I have gone through some serious rounds in life that could have ended me in a mental institute but, here I am. I am just me. I have this immense care for the world and feel that this world lacks basic love. I don't hate and my intentions are never to hurt anyone despite everything I went through in my life. I do have patience but, as soon and I am tested and especially if its for no good reason I'm gonna attack your soul and your mind. I believe in the truth so if someone is spatting BS about me or anyone I love and protection you better believe I will jump in on it. Thanks to my parents I am a layered human being that is adaptable to any situation or confrontation.

My sight on love is different. I just don't give ANYONE MY TIME. And I do not just openly have a random conversation because get the hell away from me. They say Saggs have commitment issues... I don't think so. At least not for me because when I love I LOVE and that's not just with anyone. So, if I love you just know my purpose is to protect your heart. There is no outside interferences, there are no side dudes. Its a me and you thing. Everyone else can kick rocks and get lost.

I do find that in social life such as work or school I have mainly gathered with Aries unknowingly. I also have attracted a few Aries males which is odd but, find it so fitting for me. I have made friends with Aries females and I'll tell you ... that's a hell of a fun time! haha

I love music and as in my previous post I talked about my reason for music. I also love anything that involves nature or being able to ground myself with the earth. I collect stones and crystals and feed my unicorn on a daily basis. Well.... ok I wish but, I do believe in Karma so unless I really need to be an asshole I mind myself because I'm not about to karma bitch with myself.

So as a grown woman I can say I am grateful for the unbothered mentality that I have developed. I myself have 4 kids and none of them are fire signs. God help me I have two earth and two water signs that create mud and steam. We have a special bond I understand their signs and what they need as children I teach them to be bold in times of uncertainty. I teach them strength in times of weakness. I teach them truth in times of knowledge. I took the time as a mother to know each of my kids and what they needed from me. Yes, sometimes I am a little overwhelming on my toes and on the go but, they have taught me how to anchor down with them for a while. At the same time teaching them that life is a journey of learning and exploring. My outcome on motherhood has brought me close to my children at the same time looking out for them as they become adults. They have my fire in each of them no matter how tough life may get.