Venting

Don’t ask for anything for your pleasure

Don’t share your feelings of sadness if you’re going to be blamed for them

Don’t fake interest to make a person feel better

Don’t feel guilty for caring about yourself

Don’t feel guilty for caring about your 4 walls

Don’t feel guilty for not caring about anything outbound

Don’t fake a smile just to please another

Don’t ever regret wanting more

Always want more

Don’t try to change someone’s actions

Don’t change your actions for anyone but yourself

I think it’s important to match someone’s emotions especially if you want this someone to be your forever partner. I don’t think it’s healthy to hide feelings or to keep someone lost in their emotions. I believe that everything happens for a reason even if it hurts you. I do not believe in intentionally hurting someone just to feel better about yourself. I believe that jealousy is caused by the way your partner shows you affection. I believe that partners can love each other until they die. I don’t believe that love fades away. I believe if love fades away, you were either never in love or your partner hurt you. I don’t know how I feel about “opposites attract”. What about common interests? You don’t have to like every single little thing your partner does. It’s okay to express your feelings.

I wish I could be a person who can easily express her feelings out loud and not necessarily on paper, which it’s not such a bad thing because in the future I could always look back to see how I was feeling and how much I have grown over time. I do believe that time heals you but in order to heal, you have to step away from what keeps hurting you. So anyways….. how have I been feeling? Uhm…. sad? Drained? …. tired? Mad? A tiny tiny tiny bit of happiness? Probably not. I feel numb. I don’t know how to feel anymore, I feel trapped. I feel like I settled when I had so much more to do. I was on a mission that I put on hold…. what for? For a new life, for distance, for healing? “What if” played a huge part in this “mission” I didn’t have to put my feelings away but I did… I did because I thought they would go away… I did because I thought they would be replaced with something new. I was very selfish in running away instead of sticking upfront to my reality.

We Are not the same, we are never going to be the same. I really wish I can compromise with you but I just can’t…. it will not happen. I think we just met each other to help one another out and we did just that… now what? I don’t even see a future with you anymore…… I’ve been wanting a baby but now? I don’t even want to have a child with you. I’m going to give you your space, I will let you be you, I will not try to change you. I will slowly start giving up more and more which I am sure you have been noticing. I still try to act jealous to make you mad but I instantly regret it because to tell you the truth, I really do not care About other females. No other female is intimidating to me and you have always thought that I do!! I don’t need that in my life.

I’m not sure that you will find happiness or someone that is your type of woman if you even know what type you want, but just know that it is not me.

Sometimes its important to put yourself first. You still have a whole life ahead of you and more than what is it you are focusing on. In all honesty the only person that can truly hurt you is yourself, the only reason you get hurt by others is because you let them.

And Acting like your so called problems are bigger than mine is really selfish. You should have not gotten into a relationship if you still havnt let the past go. The point is to move forward not backwards and day by day it seems like thats all youve been doing. You want to make it seem like you have had the worst life in the world… well hmmmmm maybe? To you I suppose but look at you now. Why cant you just be happy??!? Appreciate what you have and stop making excuses. You honestly remind me of some little teenager just trying to get attention. Grow up and be an adult. I really dont care how brutal or cold blooded this sounds but its just truth. Youve made me not want to care about you or nothing to do with you. I feel like I dont care what goes on in your life and if you were to find someone new then by all means do it. Maybe you will learn to be more appreciate towards them.