Valuing ordinary company

　　"Mom, I'm home." "Have you eaten? Come on, it's ready for you, it'll be cold if you don't eat." "Oh, no, I ate on the way back." "Then go eat some more whenever you're hungry." "Yeah, got it." "......"

　　Every Friday, this scenario must play out once. Every time this happened, I responded to my mother's questions with frequent nods and a few casual answers. My mother's thoughtfulness and concern seemed so ordinary to me, and because it was so ordinary, I felt a little resentful and impatient. However, I was wrong, and later I realized that I not only needed this ordinariness but was dependent, deeply dependent.

　　 My mother's health has always been poor, and she had heart surgery a few years ago, requiring medication every week to nurture her body and constant review. There was a time when my mother was in better shape, and she even found a job in a supermarket near my house as a saleswoman, relying on her meager salary to support the family together with my father. The mother said, this is the first time she has a job, so she can share some of the burdens of the family so that Dad does not have to work day and night to run the taxi, she is happy, and it is worth it.

　　 A family, parents, brother, no one is absent, four people care for each other and love each other, this is a simple and also the greatest fortune in life. In the corner of the street to eat boxed meals, in the low and dilapidated house under the fire, no matter how bad life and down, the important thing is that the family together, one can not be missing, less one will not have the taste of happiness. If I had not experienced all this, I think I would not have understood the meaning of "home" so deeply.

　　 It was a seemingly ordinary Sunday when I didn't get to go home because of school makeup. When I opened my phone and saw my brother's message, I was shocked. The message had only four words: Something big has happened. I seemed to have a premonition of what was going on, and inwardly, I dialed my mother's cell phone number in fear and anxiety, and it was answered by my brother. "The mother is in the hospital, bleeding profusely after taking that heart medicine. I can't be cured at home, so I've been transferred to Beijing." My brother's voice was trembling, and my heart was trembling too. I asked which hospital my mother was in, then hung up the phone and hurriedly called my father, who seemed to be deliberately pretending to be calm, but I could hear in his voice that he could not hide his sadness and the seriousness of the situation.

　　 It was nighttime, and I couldn't go out of school, let alone share something with my mother who was in an emergency. "The voice echoed in my ears over and over again, like a magic spell, making my heart overwhelmed, and the cold of the night could not calm it down.

　　 My tears finally came out of my eyes, and then I couldn't stop them like a downpour. I was really afraid that I would never see my mother one last time. When my eyes were blurred with tears, I felt as if I saw scenes from the past related to my mother appearing in front of my eyes one by one.

　　 In the old days, my mother led me to the roadside to pick a handful of grass, pull off the "hair" above, and weave me into all kinds of small animals, at that time I just remembered, the memory of my mother young and beautiful; first grade I did not succeed in running for class president, I came home and said to my mother a little angry "you My mother touched my head, smiled and said, "Silly boy"; in the fifth grade, because my mother had an operation, I lived with my grandma and grandpa, and no one was watching my studies. The teacher said, "Without your mother, you can't write properly, and you get so many questions wrong"; in my junior year, I didn't do my job and put my mind in other places all day, so the class teacher left my mother behind without mercy during the parent-teacher conference, and the class teacher explained my performance at school while my mother cried. ".

　　 Now I understand, mother, I promise I will never make you angry again, I was too willful, I was wrong, I just ask you to give me a chance to make up for all the mistakes I made in the past.

　　 With tears in my eyes, I wrote a leave of absence note and will sign it first thing in the morning and rush over there.

　　 For the first time in my life, I truly appreciate the importance of our parents in our lives, who bring us into the world and give us selfless love and care. We originally had nothing, but they gave us everything without asking for anything in return. Their company, though ordinary, is something we can never lose, just like the hardest bones in our body, without their strong support, then we will become weak. For the first time in my life, I was so timid to face life. If I lost my mother, I didn't know if I would have had enough courage to live the rest of my life.

　　 The next day, I was alone, taking a road I had never taken before, and after three hours of running around and asking questions from school, I finally found the hospital. Whoever said that because you know where you are going because you know what you are doing, you are not afraid of anything. I met my dad, his thinning hair had turned white, and his whole person had aged a dozen years overnight. "Your mom just finished surgery, you can go in and see her later." Dad's voice was slightly hoarse, and one could tell how exhausted and heartbroken he had been last night.

　　 My heart finally settled down a bit as my mother was still there. In between waiting, my aunt who was with the hospital secretly told me that your mother had been given a notice of critical illness by the hospital yesterday, but fortunately, your mother was blessed with a great life and was rescued in time, which saved her life. Aunt took my hand and said to me meaningfully: "Mother, it is such a role, you do not need to do anything, you just need to open the door for me when I come home every Friday, gently greeting a "back", you do not even have to bother to prepare dinner for me, just, as usual, The same as always, just sit peacefully on the sofa and tell me what has happened at home recently. And that's enough to make me happy and satisfied." After hearing this, my eyes were filled with tears, yes, who can say that they do not rely on the ordinary company of my mother?

　　 I finally met my mother, compared to the old days, my mother's face has no blood, and I seem to be able to appreciate how she fought with death last night, and how demanding to live to continue to complete her mission as a mother. When I saw us, my mother kept slipping a tear from the corner of her eye, each teardrop was filled with a double cherished love for her loved ones after she came back from the dead. I held my mother's hand and listened attentively to her speech. "You ah, really big children, understand, but also know to come to see me, your brother is not good at learning, you do sister, usually have to take more care of him some, he will not be the problem, to tell him ...... "I forced to hold back the tears, nodding hard, I am afraid that once you speak, Tears will break the bank.

　　 The doctor said that my mother's condition was stable, and I was finally relieved. The sky became clear, and my heart had color and motivation to keep going. For the first time, I understood why people say that blood is thicker than water, and that parental love, though small, is an integral part of our lives.

　　 Humans are all afraid of loss, let alone the people they love most. Fortunately, everything is just a nightmare, wake up, the most loved and my most loved people are still there, nothing more than this makes me feel solid.

　　 Buddha said: love and separation suffering. And most people, when they know this suffering, are already too late. Thanks to the years let me experience this time there is no danger, let me know how to cherish all that I have, and let me feel the pain of life and death in advance so that I can better live in the world in the future, and walk and cherish.

　　 All the mundane company we have, sooner or later you will find that you simply can not honestly lose. For example, home, because you have from the moment of birth, so you sometimes do not feel the word "home", but your bones, your subconscious, you know, home, means that no one can be missing, means together to enjoy all the good or bad days. While time is still waiting for you, please treat everything around you gently, don't wait until you lose it to regret it.