Unbreakable

I have to admit I started watching Gilmore Girls way later than most; as in, not soon enough. I love the characters and the complex emotions that are showcased; I love that Lorelai and her parents have a dynamic that mimics my own with my parents. I see a woman who did the best she could, given that she had a child so early. All of these things then became even better when you add in the romance of Luke and the storylines for Rory and her men. I will go ahead and say it first, I’m a Jess fan all the way. I think they are end game and there’s nothing that can change my mind about that. However I’m open to discussing it!

What I wanted to write about isn’t a synopsis of the series, instead I’m going to focus on a certain aspect of the revival. Perhaps you remember the song, Unbreakable, sang during “A Year in the Life.” If you don’t remember I have included the clip above. When I first heard the song I burst out crying, and not the quiet sobs of a woman who is happy with her life; the sobs of a woman who knew exactly what the song was trying to convey.

Lorelai and Luke had not gotten married yet, though they were living together. They never had a kid and it seemed they never would. Rory never became a brilliant writer on the forefront of history; and well who the hell knows what’s going on with Christopher. I think the anguish of the song comes from the idea that we all think once we have the guy, get the job or make the change; everything will be better. However, life and living are not like that. Life is a constant process that makes us continue to make choices and live with those decisions whether they are glorious or tragic.

For the time in my life that I heard the song, I was a single mom to a two year old; dating a guy that wouldn’t or couldn’t commit for whatever reason. I was stuck in limbo and wondering when my life would start, wondering if myself the idea that I could be remarried and have the life I sought; a married, stay at home mom with two kids and a husband to make dinner for. (My dream also includes me playing tennis and doing Pilates daily while drinking cold brew!) However, that dream was so far out of reach as I realized the man I was with and I were no where close to the same page. As I listened to the song and saw Lorelai move through all the emotions I had felt, I sobbed. I rewatched that scene over a hundred times, even pulling the clip up during workouts to pump myself up. The finally lyric, “somehow it’s never, or now,” gave me a hope. Hope that I would one day have everything I wanted.

That moment I told was over three years ago and I can happily say that I am now married (Surprisingly to the same guy who was having issues at the time but after a short break for us both we got married.) I play tennis most days, and work a nice job where I can pick up my kid from school and make my husband dinner almost every night. We are working on our future to prepare for the next baby and, I listen to the song again and instead of sobbing, I have tears of happiness and gratitude that I have the chance to experience these emotions in life.