THE DAY I ALMOST FELL IN LOVE 2 WOMEN AT THE SAME TIME...

For me to truly tell this story I will have to start from the beginning. It is a little bit of a love story but without the happy ending. Something like a "Urban Love Encounters". Seems like I have found another name for a book or series. However, enough being creative time to tell you a real life experience. I have always been a fan of R&B and most times I look to the United States for the best R&B going but I was awoken when I came across this talented singer by the name of Ella Mai. Now I will get into the story...

I was aiming to leave the office one afternoon and to be honest could not wait to get out. All that button pushing together with the fact my manager was trying to set me up with my colleague I had no interest for but had to play along with it to keep the office harmony. I pushed the exit doors leading out to my office and made my way to the lift. I waited a few moments after pressing the request button. As the doors open there was a 3 second awkwardness which felt like a whole minute. It was this beautiful, short and cute looking woman looking right back at me. Most times you would just be professional and say excuse me or Hi and then go about your business. But everything here felt like a slow motion video being played. She was a cleaner in the building. Her uniform was not the best. She had some sort of apron on and was trying to maneuver around me with her cleaning trolley. This made things even more awkward as I was not waiting for her to get out of the lifts and she was trying to get on with her work. As I entered the lift and as she was getting out of the lift everything was in slow motion. You could feel a energy, almost like static electricity just waiting to ignite as our bodies barely touched but something inside of us wanted it to. As I passed her I could feel her looking at me through the side of her eye and I should know cause I was doing the same. As I eventually got into the lift I waited to see if she would look back. That is often my confirmation to see if a woman is interested in me. She didn't. But she had her own moves. Never under-estimate a woman. She slowly bent over to reach for some products in her cleaning trolley. I could not help myself, my eyes followed where she wanted me to look! She had a petite frame but was very thicc... she had a round thicc booty and I could not take my eyes off her! As the lift doors started to close she innocently but seductively looked behind her to make eye contact with me. She had caught me. I quickly took my eyes of her bum and re-connected with her eyes. As the doors finally closed after 5 seconds which felt like 2 minutes she gave me a cheeky smile. The doors firmly shut and the lift took me to the ground floor. What an experience but it didn't stop there...

This started to become a regular thing when I would finish work. Not just in and out of the office lifts. In the office she would often clean around me and catch each others eye contact then look away. I would catch her looking at my bum or arms as I would do the same not sure where all this was leading to. We could not talk freely as it was company premises and we had to be professional. But this barrier was obviously something we was yearning to overcome but none of us could pluck up the courage to start a conversation. What was even more ironic was that my work colleagues were trying to set me up with a fellow female co-worker while it was one of the cleaners I lusted for. What happened was a mixture of negative and positive experience in such a short time period. The first was I eventually left the company as I could not take it working in such a female dominated office environment. I do not mind working for a female but I had enough of the pressures to date a fellow co-worker. I did not go to work for that although the end of the day always brought some sunshine into my day. On my last day I did not see her. Literally, a few days before me leaving was the last time I saw her. I lost my chance to speak to her. I lost her until...

I was sitting in a Barbers chair getting my hair cut. In she walked in with another older lady I thought was her mother. I don't think she recognized me but I definitely recognized her. And my barber could see it as my eyes followed her and booty across the room as she sat down to wait for her turn. I thought I am not losing this opportunity. I stayed quiet. My Barber started to tease me with jokes and if I wanted to know a little about her. So I said why not. He then told me that she comes in because she likes her sides but and her eyebrows done. I looked at him funny as I asked so you can do men's grooming and Female Beauty and he said yeah! More clients I guess.

As I started to become more presentable I could see she started to realize a familiar face. When my Barber finished my hair I took this opportunity to talk to her by saying "I remember you". That was enough to start a short conversation which involved a brief introduction and work update as she then realized I was no longer working for the company. I politely turned to my barber to pay for my haircut and he had more jokes for me. He openly said "Oh, look what we have here, you have not known each other for 2 minutes but yet you talk like you have known each other for ages". That made both us embarrassingly smile. The older woman she came in with was her Aunt so the environment was a a bit more relaxed. It was no out in the open now. We both fancied each other and it was now a public matter between me, her, her Aunt and my Barber. Interesting little group there right lol. We exchanged numbers with some light mature conversation and I said bye to everyone, but her last. The eye contact said it all. We were going to meet again.

We started off with a few light telephone conversations which were cute. However, every time I offered to her out to the movies or for a meal she declined which made things awkward because I could sense she wanted to come and see as that was the only option left but I felt it was too soon to be inviting her back to mine. We was only 1-2 weeks in conversation in the end I had to pop the question.

On her visit to mine she brought round a meal. I thought wow, she is concerned about me. The gesture was appreciated. The nice thing is she had enough for me and her. We continued exactly like we were doing on our phone conversations, while munching on what she had cooked and brought round. We finished off eating and lay on the sofa and carried on talking for another hour or two. It got to that point where we had fewer words to say to each other. This is when she offered to play some music. I said "feel free". She reached over clearly making it clear to me she has a set of thicc thighs and a big booty and pulled out her phone and connected to my Bluetooth speaker. The first track she played was a track by "Ella Mai" called "trippin". When I heard it I immediately fell in love with this artist. I asked if she was American or a British Artist based in America. She said she is a British artist but has done collaborations with American artists. After a short autobiography of Ella Mai the music was so good we just had to stay quiet. Halfway through the song we were just looking at each other, she broke out into a smile as if to say what are you waiting for. So I took a breath of man courage I reached over to her and kissed her. She didn't resist. A kiss turned to another kiss. And after another lead to another, another led to our bodies touching and holding each other. More kisses turned to tongues. Passionately kissing could only lead to something sexually. At this point I wanted to started to undress her but every time I wanted to she would remove my hands but continue kissing. This went on for almost 30 minutes. Just passionately and building up to wanting to have sex then she pulls the clutch and changes the gears back down to 1. I guess 2,3,4, and 5 was too fast for her. I respected it. Once we reached our climax of just kissing and caressing each other she then said she had to go as it was getting late. Being the gentlemen that I am I offered to walk her home. Or at least to her street! Little did I know she lived just a 20 minute walk away from me. So I walked her home for 15 minutes and it reminded me of when I had my childhood sweetheart back in secondary school. You would think this story was going to have a happy ending but it seems like most things that start off too good to be true almost ends up in disappointed

For the next month she would come by and spend time with me at my house. We would talk and enjoy each others company while just laying down at times just listening to Ella Mai. It was a nice experiences but it was frustrating as she would start the passionate kissing, holding and touching but it would never lead to anywhere. I started to notice some odd behaviors which would then start as warning signs that this was not going to end well.

At times she would make the point that because she has a Vagina and therefore had all "The Power". I mean I heard it in jokes but never thought it was something someone actually felt passionately about. In fact I remember when she said it I wondered what was the reason for all the attitude ? Nothing was provoked. Something was odd here...

After a couple of sleepover I eventually told her that it was unfair that she would come over, sleep over, initiate intimacy but would never lead to sex. I advised her that I was a Heterosexual man and was not fair that she would always initiate things but never go all the way. I kindly brought the sleepovers to an end. I said I am comfortable her visiting me during the day but I think we can stop the night time sleepovers which were constantly confusing me. We can still maintain some sort of relationship without the sleepovers. She agreed but it would not be so simple. She would start to call me at night just to make sure I am alone, then after a few weeks she persisted that she wanted to come over and stay the night. She missed the hugs and kisses at night and wanted them to come back. After a week of persistence from her I agreed that she could stay one night. This one night would be her last with me. I didn't know it yet but what started off so well was about to come to an end.

The last night she came over she came to stay the night. We cuddled up with each other with the same Ella Mai music to set the mood but the magic was gone. I felt there was unfair amount of manipulation going on and was just trying to figure this woman out. We slept though the night until 8am. Her alarmed woke us up and she said she had to get up to go to the Clinic!

I was like Huh! Clinic. I was confused because 6 weeks had passed since we had been meeting up and we never had sex, so I was confused what need she had to go to the clinic. I asked her why she was going to the clinic ? She replied I just want to be careful. We could not talk for long as she had ordered a taxi and was heading to the clinic right away. It was not a rush thing but regardless of what it was a strange situation. Someone I have never had sex with was going to the clinic to be careful. When she left I could not stop thinking about what just occurred. It made no sense, until I realized she must have been seeing someone else either before me or at the same time.

I refused to meet up with her until I got to the bottom of why she wanted or needed to go to the clinic. Her first explanation was that she wanted to protect me which was sweet but I knew there was more. After some pressure she eventually told me that she thought she was pregnant. I said with who because it cant be with me, we have not even had sex, and I am not Joseph and she was not Mary. She opened up and told me that she felt she might have been pregnant with her the person she was seeing on and off before me. I was shocked. All this time I thought what we were feeling towards other was exclusive. I did not know there was a 3rd person in the picture. I asked her what happened at the clinic and she replied it was a false alarm and that she was not pregnant with her ex baby. her story still not feel 100% genuine so I parked it and thought on it for a while.

I eventually came to the decision that I would not continue any further with this relationship. It had to come to an end immediately. I have had negative experiences in the past and I did not want history to repeat itself. In a phone conversation I explained to her that I could not continue seeing her. I advised her that I felt a bit betrayed as she was coming to my house and spending nights at my house while she had another situation going on. I advised her that I felt she was balancing 2 men in her life unfairly and she was just lining me up as a "Rebound". She spent the next 2 weeks trying to convince me it could work and that she was the one for her. She also offered the opportunity for us to go all the way but she did not realize I was already turned off the idea. We aint all perfect but you cant sleep in my bed for weeks and hold secrets like that from me. Cause I wouldn't do that from her which lead me to believe we was not compatible. She would then use the next 2 weeks to send me threats and if I see her I should not say anything to her if I knew what was good for me. For me this was enough! I stopped responding to her and where possible even avoided her if I saw her in public.

6 months later I was walking and I could see her walking towards me. This time she was walking alongside a guy. We were both mature adults so I was hoping to avoid anything confrontational. There was not any point. We had both moved on.

As we got closer I could see she could recognize me. The guy she was with not aware. What made this encounter so different was the fact there was no chemistry as we passed. What was once electrifying was now just static air.

We passed each other without a care in the world. It was then I knew that it is never wise to fall into something head first. You can fall into lust easily but love is a totally different ball game which requires

"Time".