Song That Changed My Life

Leslie Notis

Mays Landing, NJ 08330

United States

609-287-6568

Love Will Find a Way-Pablo Cruise-1978

When I first heard this song, I was 16 years old. At that time, I was really searching for something. That Love, that I was missing all throughout my childhood. And I would hear this song all the time playing on my car radio as I was driving. And that particular year, my sibling-(sister) passed away in an automobile accident. And that just deepened my feeling for this song. I just resonated with it so much. And then I realized how it reminded me of my very tumultuous relationship with my father. “Someone's got me wrong, you thought that your love was strong, now you're feeling like such a fool. Poor you.” I was emotionally pulled away from my father all throughout my childhood, although living under the same roof with him. And maybe I thought our love WAS strong, maybe even taking that love for granted. Only what happened to our relationship all throughout my childhood as I was growing up, through other relationships in our household, my father and I became very distant and estranged in our relationship. Emotionally distant, and separated emotionally. Which became very numbing for me. Maybe my father “got” me wrong, and vice versa. And now I was “feeling like a fool!” A fool that was taking love for granted. And I never really said “Good -bye,” to my dad. I just left the house at age 16 to live somewhere else. And because I never really allowed myself to feel the pain, I never really got past the pain.

And many years later I wound up in a relationship where I felt that me and this other person were taking each other for granted.

And after a long time of being together with this man, this relationship was falling apart. And again, “Someone's got me wrong,” (and vice versa). “I thought that our love was strong, now I'm feeling like a fool, again.” And “I'm thinking, maybe if I said goodbye, I'll understand the reason why, the love I had felt so cool, hmm.” And I have said goodbye to this man, informally. But I have left, and as far as I'm concerned, it is “goodbye!” And I've heard this song again throughout these past years, and it still resonates in my life! Only this time, I do plan to “get past the pain.” And “learn to find MY love again.” And I am trying “keeping my heart open,” because I believe “love will find a way!” As long as I am open and willing. And that the main theme of these relationships, although one my father, and another considered a significant other, that “someone's got me wrong.” And that these relationships have been very much taken for granted.

And so now I really do “feel a need to change,” “my love I'll have to rearrange,” and “move onto something new.”

And I am “almost afraid to be true to myself” now, yet it's the only way for me now. I must make a brand new start, and I must learn to be true to myself now. However, I do have dreams and aspirations that keep me going. I need to be true to me now, so I can stop taking my relationships and loved ones for granted.

So this song has resonated with the very fibers of my soul, and being, all the way back from that time I was 16, up until this very day. And this song will continue to resonate with me, in the likes that I may live by it each and every day! And I'm tickled that I've gotten to share this with you all! Peace and Love