Simple spaces

It was in that space, that little gap of nothing, between yesterday and tomorrow, where I finally found myself. My peace. The place that put the dreams together to show me the way. The place where there was no pain, no memories, no hate, anger, or loss. It was in that space where I could breathe.

Years of learning, yearning to be free, overly trying to fit in the spaces others created for me, tried to push me into, finally I saw that little gap, rising with the sun as it came over the Eastern mountains of my soul.

It didn't pressure, it didn't hate. It accepted me just as I am. It was plain, full of opportunity, but no expectations, no hurt. It didn't care who I was yesterday, it didn't care who I wanted to be tomorrow, it just shone on the me that I was today. Calmly, quietly making its way across the sky of my empty mind.

I could make out the steady breathing, my heartbeat sending energy throughout all the other places. It was quiet, no judgments there, just perfect peace. I held that space wanting to stay forever. Finally finding what I had always longed for, no regrets, no plans, just nothing.

Breathing deeply I settled into the brightness of that space, eyes fluttering as shapes, and colors danced behind my eyelids. No heartache here, as though a million years had never gone by. The ever changing dance of nothing, showing me everything I ever wanted to know, yet telling me nothing my heart hadn't already shown.

Deep breaths, distant sounds of a life I was grateful for and yet always wanted out of. Secrets from my soul, laughing, running, playing, but not taunting me, just letting me be. Letting me watch, long, hope, love.

That little space that somehow I had missed my entire life. Somewhere close to where you found sleep, yet not there either. This space was for my soul, my inner being that watched, waited, loved. I could sit in peace, finally free of the never ending passing of chaotic thought.

Nothing bothered in that space, that little gap between here, and there. I found so much to love there, time didn't exist, only peace, steady breathing of my body and the energy that kept me alive.

In that forgotten place is where I finally began to grow. Where I could look at my heart in a different light, be free to love every part of me playing in the dancing images just beyond my grasp. It was in this space that I finally found the love for me, that I had searched for my entire life.

There it was, quiet, slow, patient. Time stands still, walking hand in hand with everything and nothing at once. Water runs, rainbows glisten in the streams and laughter bounces off a thousand canyons. All inside that little space. Somewhere in my mind, between yesterday, and tomorrow.

Shooting stars, and wishes kept. Nothing but understanding. How had I missed it all my life, how I had not felt that quiet touch on my cheek, the one that made everything okay. A sense of something so calm I could cry out with joy, releasing the tears that had plagued me for years.

In that quiet space where no time went by, yet years were erased that had held me down, in that long lost place everything comes together in love. Lights shining directly on my heart, tearing it down and rebuilding the broken pieces like they were always meant to be.

Relaxed, floating on and endless sea, such peace. Such love. The steady sound of my breath, my heartbeat. Complete and loved. No questions, no judgments. Just love for me. For you. For everything and everyone, all one breath, floating on this endless sea.