Rotten Dreams

I never believed in "luck" but misfortunes seem to compromise my life to great extents. Imagine being too sad to think. Being too stressed to function. Being too afraid to exist. Those are just some of my troubles. Not being able to show emotion is another thing I face on the daily and it hurts. It hurts and its a violent streak of wanting to give up. I don't want to give up. Yet I find myself lost and left without a clue to being found. Nobody seems to care either. Now, I feel alone in the sense that most people will not understand my situation or can even relate to what I am going through. That's just reality for us all. Or at least that is MY reality.

I guess my spiritual status says enough. Being the on to point out the flaws of humankind. Being the only one to attain perfection in her time of existing. By being one to use her voice for purposes outside of normal understanding. The one to point out optimism over pessimism because I crave to live and enjoy a life worth sharing. My passion is what keeps me going. Although I might be weak in many areas, I do still contain the strength to keep pushing me throughout it all.

I try to work towards allowing for people to be okay and then for me to spread positivity throughout pure charismatic ways. That's what I'm about. This is truly my only purpose in life and I am excelling at it. On my way to a place that I can thrive and strive in and it's already a beautiful happening. Yet I'm left here; soullessly holding onto all of my rotten dreams. Like an apple forgotten in the fruit bowl; my ideas and passions have died out. Maybe I waited too long to show the world some love. Maybe I should have published that book of mine instead of getting upset and tearing it all apart. Maybe this, maybe that; all I know is that I am on the brink of giving up on my destiny.

Do I actually want to give up on my destiny? -Well, of course (not)? I mean life is beautiful but it's surely the wicked happenings that occur on the daily that drives fear into my veins. I swear I'm about to overdose on sadness. It feels as though the chemical in balance is going to win but it would be stupid of me to not fight back. In ways I do like to view my rotten dreams as a wake up call. To be reminded to stop waiting around and just put in the efforts where my dreams are no longer dreams but they become my reality once and for all. I mean I believe I deserve that greatness. How could anyone argue different? -That would be so out of place.

To continue to benefit from my perfect life I want to set an example to my fellow peoples. This example contains addressing specific global issues and why & how it affects everybody. Then to also bring up other concerning issues such as: insecurities, self-hate, and lack of faith in the world. Due to these problems we people as a nation are left being: sad, hateful, angry, upset, confused, or point blank left wanting to leave the world behind. That is no way to live. Feeling those things is not okay. Yet we feel these things because there are individuals out there that enjoy causing conflict. Conflict is a thing of life that does NOT need to be created, maintained, or even exampled for. Instead conflict must be destroyed. Once conflict is destroyed then peace will be on our horizon. Some say that world peace is a far fetched idea; yes it might actually be, but it is still an extraordinaire concept that this world is in need of.