Relish The Altered State

This morning I realized we're always going to be altered by something. I'm going to be altered today is it going to start with a stimulant? A cup of coffee, a barking dog, a lot of sugar, a laughing friend, a newscaster, myself in the mirror, a meal, a drug-what will it be?

My day will be altered, will it be a drug to wake up, up pick me up, decrease my cancer, calm me down, stop my pain, decrease my depression, increase my joy, down put me to sleep, and then wake me bright the next morning?

Am I going to be altered by the joy of the sunrise or sunset, or is it by seeing my lover's or loved ones face? Am I going to be altered by grief over the death of a loved one or the sadness of my child being hurt? Am I going to be altered by the sounds of the birds, a walk in nature, the smile and laugh of a child or the calm passing of clouds above me?

I am going to be altered in my life! Is it by a cup of kava, by the meal that I ate too much of? Or will it be by the meal that I ate just enough of that makes me smile and does not make my belly hurt?

In life we're going to be altered. Is it a joy of watching my favorite drama Grey's Anatomy and having the full range of emotions or watching a horror movie (things I never watch) that will scare me so deeply into to a fear state (forgetting it is all an illusion)? Is being altered an illusion? Is life an illusion-the cosmic Maya?

Am I going to be altered by playing a video game and feeling that exhilaration, excitement and conquest or defeat? Am I going to be altered by restarting the game or by making more passionate love after loving all night long?

Am I going to be altered by being asked to be married and then being asked for or asking for a divorce?

Am I going to altered by being an entrepreneur elated landing my first client and then earning my first million! Am I going to be a millionaire altered by still not feeling satisfied?

Am I going to be altered by losing my job and waking up many pounds and months later realizing I had been altered when I ate myself into obesity?

Am I going to be altered enough to be homeless because I lost my job, then my house and I freaked out not knowing what to do and was too depressed to care.

I'm going to be altered by the weather? If it's cold am I going to be altered by feeling a chill in my bones that makes me wear warm clothes, hats, gloves and boots? Am I going to be altered by sitting by a fire feeling the warmth?

Am I going to be altered by the storm that the news broadcasts is coming to my town? Am I going to be altered in panic in the preparations that are necessary to board my house and make sure I have water, food and batteries, etc.

Am I going to be altered?

Yes I'm going to be altered by life! We are all going to be altered! It may be naturally, artificially, unintentionally, intentionally. Yes, I'm going to be altered. I ponder that thought and take a deep sighing breath. All of my emotions are going to be affected! I breathe deeply and sigh again.

I'm going to be altered by the greatest sadness to the greatest joys and everywhere in between. I'm going to be altered by all the happening of life whether I want to be or not! The human condition is to be altered by life.

Now the question is who am I, that is being altered by life?

Who are you that's being altered by life?

Who are we the Witness or the Participant- think about it!

But maybe we are too altered to even think clearly...