Relationship of a lifetime

Today was the revelation I needed.Today I realized that I’m the only person I need to survive,I’ve always been a very strong independent woman throughout my life but I went through a rough patch as many people do.Full time job working overtime to make sure I could pay my bills and everything else that I may want,never would I have borrowed money from anyone,lived on my own from the young age of 17.No boyfriends they just get in the way and try to change you plus most boys don’t like the fat girl I was beyond ok with that I had a plan. I only needed myself I worked hard had great friends a great apartment and a nice car that was paid off might I add.Picture of perfection right I was so happy wasn’t missing anything and then...

Visiting with my sister on an April afternoon playing with my niece in the front yard when my brother in law comes home with one of his friends.A man I had met many years and 100lbs heavier he was instantly taken with me, he couldn’t talk,walk or even remember to breathe.I was instantly taken by his shy demeanor.Mackenzie (my sister) and her husband Gabe then introduced Chuck to me again and asked if we wanted to join them for dinner that evening.We both accepted.That’s the beginning of my nightmare.

We had an amazing dinner Chuck was very interested in my life where I worked,and how I lived.He was a fan of where I lived due to the fact that it was above a bar he felt it wasn’t safe,I thought that was cute, I knew the owners and my neighbors I knew I was safe I reassured him I was safe.That still seemed to be a thing before we said goodnight and exchanged phone numbers,I had thought maybe another date maybe without chaperones this time especially as at this point I’m 27 I don’t think I need a chaperone.

Chuck called about an hour after I got home, he was outside my building and wanted to see me to talk. I was in the bar having a beer with the bartender who was a friend telling her about the date I had just had.She warned me that it was creepy that he followed me home I really should’ve listened, I went outside.Chuck started telling me that he had just gotten out of a serious relationship and was staying with his parents and that they kicked him out when he got home that night. I had never even had a boyfriend let alone have a boy live with me but I’m an extremely nice person and I believed him so I showed him where to park.That night was weird I made him sleep on the couch I barely knew him and I didn’t think that it would be permanent. I had to go to work that night he argued with me about me driving myself he wanted to take me and that wasn’t something I wanted ever I didn’t even know what we were doing I thought he just needed a place to crash for a night now he wants to drive me to work.

A week later I come home from work and my whole apartment is packed up half of the stuff is already gone.Chuck who has no job no income besides his disability check decided that he was going to take it upon himself to move me and him to some cottage in the woods that I definitely couldn’t afford and little did I know he started a fight with my landlord over money.

This cottage is beautiful I’ve been walking back and forth to work Chuck seems to have broken the transmission on my car,those things happen I can’t get too upset about it.He hates that I work til 11:30pm and I’m not getting home until after midnight it’s really bothering him bad but that’s the job I have to work it seems to be a constant problem a fight everyday for me to get out of the house.And I caught him packing stuff again so I think he’s planning on moving us again. I don’t want to move I love this little place we bring my nieces and nephews over my nephews are supposed to be here this weekend and Mackenzie and Gabe .

It’s Thursday,my nephews are spending the night tonight we have 5 boys together including his 3 nephews who are also sleeping over.We decided to make up some hotdogs and French bread pizza and Mac and cheese for dinner.Chuck flips out starts yelling there’s only 3 pizzas so he says “my mother bought the pizza my nephews get the pizza”. That set me off we should never separate them mine from yours or who bought what. I work I have money me and my boys will walk and go out to eat if that’s what you want to do.That was the first time Chuck hit me he dragged me upstairs then put me in the closet after. I didn’t have a cell phone Chuck felt that home phones were more effective. I got back downstairs and was able to get my boys out I had their parents come get them I didn’t say what happened I just didn’t want them to see anything like that and didn’t feel it was safe for them to be there.No child should ever have to watch that.And I knew Mackenzie would be there Saturday I could talk to her and Gabe.

Friday night I’m at work I’m a CNA at a local nursing home.it’s about 7-7:30pm I’m just finishing up showers, and I suddenly hear my name loudly,it’s Chuck! He’s screaming telling the nurses that either they fire me right now or he’s going to drive through the big oxygen tank and blow the whole building up. I’m hiding,thinking that they’re calling the cops. No instead they are searching for me it’s safer to sacrifice 1 person than an entire nursing home. They found me he found me dragged me out it was by far one of the worst nights of my life.He had this Chevy Blazer which I found out his parents gave him,we got home in less than 5 minutes him backhanding me the whole way all because he had found a picture on my computer of me my best friend and her boyfriend.God forbid I ever have my picture taken with another man regardless of who he was,Chuck smashed the computer.and as for me I no longer had a job and was to follow him and not leave his side.

It’s now Saturday the day I’ve been waiting for finally I’ll be able to get some help out of here.Chuck follows me into the bathroom,upstairs,I can’t shower alone I have to follow him or he gets mad.Mackenzie and Gabe will be here around 2 with the little munchkin. They have no idea what’s going on.

Gabe shows up with an old friend him and Mackenzie are fighting,her name is Mary. Mary is very flamboyant and outspoken I know Mackenzie and Gabe hang out with her a lot either together or separate she seems like a lot of fun,but I really wanted my sister here tonight.

Chuck doesn’t like it when I drink so I’m not allowed to,him Gabe and Mary head down towards the river to have a few beers and smoke some weed which I don’t do,I’m to stay in the house and cook dinner,fry some steaks and mashed potatoes then I’m supposed to yell down to them.

Dinners ready I decided to walk down and surprise everyone instead of yelling down thought it would be ok.Gabe was at the fire they had going he hadn’t seen me yet,I heard a noise to my left so I started that way and walked up on Chuck and Mary. Chuck had Mary’s pants down and shirt over her head he was cheating on me so I walked out in the clearance made sure that they saw.How dare they at my house while I’m cooking dinner for them,what a slap in the face. Chuck flipped out it was my fault I was supposed to yell not walk down he grabbed me by the throat and picked me up, I couldn’t breathe. He was screaming,suddenly I seen Gabe behind Chuck with a glass beer bottle in his hand I knew what he was gonna do I braced myself for the fall. Gabe swung and I heard the smash then there was blood a lot of blood, but I could breathe and Chuck was down. Mary went to rush to Chuck when I told her to get the fuck away, Gabe went over to him Chuck got up. They tasseled a little bit and then Gabe helped Chuck back to the house. Me and Gabe had then talked and I told him how often it had been happening and that I don’t get 5 minutes alone anymore and that I lost my job. I had decided to stay there the night just to make sure that he wouldn’t die from a concussion cause that’s the person that I am.

That night while I was sleeping Chuck woke me up with his hands wrapped around my throat.He told me that I was marrying him or he was going to kill my nieces and nephews starting with the youngest and if I didn’t believe him then to try leaving and see what happens.

Moving again go figure to a more remote location this time. A trailer nobody will ever hear me if I yell my only thoughts. First thing he did was board up the back door and bedroom windows made sure the only way out was the front door.He slept on the couch with the phone in his pocket or under his pillow right in front of the door and whenever he left the house he would put tape on the outside of the door so if I opened the door he would know.I wasn’t allowed to shower when he wasn’t home cause that meant that I was touching myself and that’s cheating,if he was there he would follow me into the bathroom to make sure I didn’t wipe to hard cause that’s cheating as well. I used to have to follow him around the house and be by his side at all times or he would come find me.

The night before the wedding Chuck wanted to mark his territory like a dog. He pissed on my wedding dress I had to have my best friend clean it before I could wear it I lied and told her the dog did it.

Moving again now we’re going to a camper in the middle of the woods in November nobody will find me. He’s excited about it he gets to have a gun I’m freakin out. We’re on my uncle’s property thankfully so I feel somewhat safe.

Chuck decides one night that he’s pissed hates living there thinks my uncle and aunt are spying on us which they are I asked them to they know what’s going on. He’s waving the gun around pointing it at me it’s loaded at this point I’m just hoping he kills me I can’t take much more and if I leave he’ll kill my nieces and nephews, so this is the best solution just fucking shoot me. Suddenly we hear this thundering “ BOOM”!! My uncle shot his 50 cal off he could see what was going on through the window. Chuck threw me in his vehicle and as much as he could fit and we were off again.

We are at Chuck’s parents house. I’m thinking maybe he won’t be able to follow me into the bathroom and shower if we’re there I enjoy doing those things alone as do most people, but no he continues with his weird behavior if I attempt to go into the living room he starts a fight thinking that I’m mad. I have to be by his side at all times. His buddy calls wants him to go hang out I tell him to go I just want a break go have a good time hang out with your friends. He comes home I’m sleeping Chuck wakes me up again wrapping his hands around my throat and holding me down. Thankfully his dad heard a ruckus and stopped it Chuck was on some kind of drugs that night his dad made him sleep outside in the cold.

January 10th this girl showed up at the house I had met her a couple times at chuck’s friends house.She was upset and pregnant it was Chucks. I walked away from the door and went to the room where we were staying,his parents were at his sisters for dinner, Chuck came in and shut the door. He asked what I was doing and I told him I was packing I was leaving, Chuck threw me threw the door,he climbed on top of me and started chocking me then I was able to get him off of me with the help of the dogs , he then punched me breaking my jaw and I’m gonna say knocking me out. When I came to I was in a room off the side of the house I could hear him telling his parents that I left him. His father never came out to this shed and I was tied up my mouth killing me I didn’t know what to do. I know that I had been sleeping a lot, when I suddenly heard his dad on the phone saying that I had left and he didn’t know where I went and that Chuck wasn’t home. I started banging my head against the wall hard I figured that if I could hear him he had to be able to hear me.He did he had to cut the lock off and got me into the house and he called my best friend to come get me and then called my parents to tell them that he found me and it wasn’t good. He gave me a bunch of my clothes told his son not to come home and I never looked back.