Pay Attention...

In just under 2 weeks, life as everyone knows it, has changed. Things are closed that no one ever thought they would have to go without. People are fighting over food, toilet paper, baby formula, etc. I saw yesterday where a Class A RV was stolen by a drunk man. He almost ran us over. There were street racers flying down highways, drug dealers not even trying to hide anymore. Addicts passing out. I was followed through the store by a man "watching" me and no, he didn't work there. He was a shopper. The only people out yesterday, for the most part, were thieves, drug dealers, and "unusual" people like me.

You need to understand I have SURVIVED a lot of shit. I have been around the lowest of the low people, I have been one of the lowest. I also know how to be diplomatic or protect myself in certain situations. I am also 15 years in recovery from hard drugs and I know how to curb my temptations. I know how to make a meal for 4 people off $7. I know how to grow food, hunt, and fish. My instincts are insane because I have what is labeled as complex PTSD from abuse and survival. But is it now a bad thing? My anxiety now seems justified to others who now have no choice but to experience something similar. My PTSD taught me hypervigilance. Have you ever sat down and thought about your "personal" survival skills? While we are all now practicing "social distancing" (which I have done my whole life, for the most part, lol), you might want to learn a few things. Learn to understand yourself and how to take care of yourself.

This article isn't about religion. Let me say that before I say this... Many old belief books, mythology, drawings, writings, spoke of some kind of "apocalypse". Some kind of major "catastrophe", some version of a being coming to save everyone, maybe some kind of being that wipes out everyone. This is no longer a myth. Is it exactly as it is written in a religious context? No. Everyone interprets things their own way, even the authors of the writings. However, I have had multiple dreams of something like this for over 2 decades. Waking up screaming, sweating, scared. Then I would calm myself down and start thinking of ways I would survive certain situations (this has always helped me cope). You could possibly say all the dreams are fears, anxiety, caused by past abuse, movies... what have you. But I know differently. I know when I dream of something in an exact scenario (I dream journal), then it happens later, it is not a fear. I have no fear of dying. I have no fear of not surviving... I seem to be good at it. I have no fear of things crossing over, I have seen them my whole life. I have no fear of "evil" or mean people, I make a good villain when backed into a corner.

This isn't the end, it is just the beginning of a whole different world. The whole world is seeing the truth about powerful people, big companies, famous people, rich people, etc. They are seeing it all while in a world-wide "crisis". There is more to come behind all of this. The coronavirus isn't the only thing coming. I can't be specific, I can just state that I have a "feeling" and until I completely understand it, I won't say what it is. I do know that my husband, our neighbors, our pup, and I are preparing to keep protected. To keep hunkered down. We all know what survival is like, we all know each other, we all know how to do what needs to get done. I suggest you pick your apocalypse partner now and your apocalypse people if at all possible. The wheels are just now starting to turn.