My Souls

I love you with everything that is inside of my soul! I have looked into your eyes so many times and seen the most beautiful human that I believe could have ever been created! When you smile for absolutely no reason or even at the silliest of things, I fall in love with you more and more! It has never taken much effort on your part to show me the whole and complete meaning of life and or what my purpose is for being on this planet.

There are so many people in this world that look for love in another for so many different reasons and there are many of those reasons that are the complete opposite reasons to love. Are those words misused in these days that it allows another person to question if what they feel is real or if it is just an emotion that is similar to what they want love to be? Do you think that some say those words because they are afraid they will never truly be loved or know the actual meaning or feeling of love?

Love is not something that is created to fit the things that are lacking in your life. Love was not shown for the very first time so that you did not have to fall asleep next to no one. Love is not a word that can be used to give you possessions that you have convinced yourself you cannot be without. And it is not a word that any one should use so that another does not feel the pain of knowing the truth.

As we all know, there are too many reasons to tell someone or something that you love them. However, it is up to the soul that is inside of us to decide who and what is worth allowing the word love to flow from our lips with beauty and unconditional purpose.

When you have met the one person or persons for the very first time and your heart seems to beat just a little bit faster. Or you stumble over the words that are so simple to say in any other situation. Or the beautiful butterflies are flying in your stomach and the lump in your throat keeps you from relaxing and enjoying just the feeling of their finger on your finger. When you can lay on the ground in the middle of the night and stare at the night stars together without one word being spoken, that is when your soul is getting ready to tell you that it is your duty from this point forward to cherish, to protect, to memorize every detail of their movements because this person will be the one that shares their last breath with you by their side holding onto them while they fade away.

I have been given four chances in my life to understand and feel what it means to have my soul long for the days to spend with them, hold them when life has become to fearful to walk it alone, to do the most silliest of things just so that I can hear them tell me that I am crazy, to share my inner most secrets because I know they will not judge me nor hurt me for my thoughts. I could never imagine life without these humans and if I never complete the path that I was brought here to walk, I can say for eternity that I know what "Love" is and I would go through the fire and deep ocean all over again if it meant that I would end up with the same four humans......

Kaprin, Javin, Jaslee and Robert, the very first day I looked into your eyes, I saw my soul inside of yours and I knew there would never ever be another that could give me the excitement and honor of being given all of you to be absolutely and completely in love with you!

I truly do not ever want to live in this life or the next without all of you by my side! I love you my babies! Thank you for letting me be your mommy!!!!