Miss my mother

My mother passed away during the epidemic. When my mother left, she didn't even see her daughter for the last time. So she left us with regrets in life, sadness and disappointment. I was extremely sad, sad, and sad...

My mother, yes, on the 23rd month of the twelfth lunar month of 2021, she tripped her because of the shoelaces on her feet. She broke her hip joint and fell out of position, which is the hip. The joint was dislocated, and his back was severely bruised. My brother and my nephew drove him to the county hospital in a car. After an examination, the doctor said that he must have an operation. The doctor said my mother was too old. He is over eighty years old, and I am afraid that he will not be able to persist, afraid that he will not be able to withstand the toss, and that he will not be able to get off the operating table. His injury can only be treated conservatively and raised!

　　 The doctor prescribed the medicine and the medicine to my mother, and went back to treat it for 20 days and no results...

When I first fell and came back from Luobei, my mother was sometimes sober and sometimes confused. That day, the 24th day of the twelfth lunar month, my mother had her birthday, because I didn’t know that my mother had an accident. Yes, I am out of town, I am in Beijing, I called my mother, and I greet my mother happily and wish him a happy birthday!

　　 It was my sister who answered the phone call at the time. My sister was with my mother. My sister gave the phone call to my mother. At that time, my mother was already sober and only said to me, "You won't come back?"

　　 I learned this sentence later, which is the last sentence my mother said to me during her lifetime!

　　 The words of my mother have stayed in my ears forever, and they will always be deeply imprinted in the depths of my heart. This words often echoes in my ears, and I hear my mother’s voice "You are not coming back!"

The time when my mother was seriously injured and sick was just in time for the most severe time of Beijing’s isolation and home isolation. I wanted to go back and see my mother. At that time, I already took out my passbook and put it in her bag. Inside. Then I called my sister and said I want to go back to see my mother. My sister said, "Sister, don’t come back. Even if you come back, you won’t see my mother. I have to quarantine you. Inconvenient for people to come and go

　　, you still don't come back or don't come back.

　　 So I didn’t go back, and I was in Beijing. My family prayed for her every day, and prayed for my mother with tears. I thought that my mother would be well and be able to stand up again, but it was not good to say anything. My mother finally left us sad and disappointed with the regrets of life...

My mother left us, and I didn’t see her last time. I was so sad that I was so painful that the more I thought about it, the more I thought about my mother’s anxious mood when he was seriously ill to visit his daughter. How longing for his daughter to go back His last side! Perhaps in my dream, I was looking forward to seeing his daughter, hoping that her daughter suddenly appeared in front of him and gave him a surprise!

　　 But the reality is so cruel. It disappointed my mother. My mother was so disappointed that she did not see her daughter for the last time until she swallowed her last breath!

　　Daughter, I have been crying for several days. I have been crying for several days. When I think of it, the moment my mother is looking forward to her daughter’s anxiety, the daughter cries in tears. Reality! Reality! How can it be so cruel!

It’s Ching Ming Festival in two days, which is my mother’s May 7th day. I wanted to go back to my hometown to visit my mother’s grave and pay tribute to her. He was a believer before my mother was alive, and I also believe in the Lord. People who believe in Jesus cannot burn paper, but can only pray before God to commemorate their mother.

I called my father, I said I would go back on Ching Ming Festival, but my father said you don’t come back, save a little money, the travel expenses are so much, so expensive and so far away, it’s not easy to come back once , Spend a lot of money, travel expenses, don't come back, you have a little money, it is not easy to earn some money from a part-time job! Don't come back!"

　　 That’s how my father said that you should be in your class well! Just take good care of yourself! I don’t have to worry about it!"

　　 But the more I think about it, the more sad it gets, the more I miss me, the more guilt and the more self-blame!

My parents have brought me up with great difficulty since I was a child, and I have read so many books in vain. I have not had time to repay my parents for their nurturing grace. My mother just left with such regret! You said how sad I was Ah !