Material girl list.

#1.) I need the latest diamond Berkin bag.

#2.) I need the latest three emeralds cut diamond Rolex wristwatches tiger's eye mounted on the bezel and rubies mounted on the dial.

#3.) I need my green Gucci suit with Gucci stiletto pumps Gucci bag and Gucci umbrella.

#4.) I need groceries badly and I do not have any funding. (Woe is me.)

#5.) I need my housing to be luxury not ghetto. I need my own house on the east side of Cincinnati in the perfect spot of course.

#6.) Household hygiene items that cost as much as my expensive taste calls for.

#7.) I want a new I-phone with a splendid case and beats.

#8.) I want to make exceedingly great money being an author via vocal+.

#9.) I want to be able to pay my taxes on the money I make via vocal+.

#10.) I need financial comfort and I want my own Cadillac Lyric.

#11.) I need to go to Driver's Education after getting my temporary driver's license.

#12.) I need to be able to switch off from monthly vocal+ fee to annual so I only pay my bill once a year. I am ready to make that money indefinitely.

#13.) If I want to own the house I stay at the moment and get professional work done to it to up the value I need money and money obviously does not grow on trees but I will NOT beg anyone. What for? I am too proud to beg for shit.

14.) I seriously hope that the self-propelled driving feature that the Cadillac Lyric has will never fail me. I cannot steer worth a damn. It seems too hard to drive really though. I need it to parallel park for me and everything just perfectly.

#15.) I would love to be a Lyft and or Uber operator and supplement that income by being an author via vocal plus while I make my own hours.

#16.) I would love to be able to drive confidently free of fear or be able to avoid an event that could be tragic for me or someone else.

I need to come up financially and gain so badly. I feel like no one knows or cares. I feel that way a lot. I always fall on hard times on month to month basis because welfare checks and food stamps never pay enough. It is not like anyone can live on eight hundred bucks per month. It is not fair that My situation keeps holding me back. I have been using the vocal+ platform for eight months now and I have written only sixteen stories because I am so fatigued from depression. I struggle constantly and I hate it very much. I am always depressed and aggravated because I go through tolerating my roommate and his behavioral issues and there is the money issue always staring back at me right in the face. I look at it in the doggone mirror every day and ask myself, why do I always spend to the very last dollar making impulse purchases to become disappointed way before the 6th of each month or worse. I am beat and I feel defeated all because of me standing in my way as if I am my own worst materialistic broke ass enemy. I have to look at myself all the time in the mirror disappointed while I ask myself, why do I refuse to do better? There is no point in using this new card that is coming to my residence in the mail because I cannot afford the stupid damned thing anyway, but now I need nine dollars and ninety-nine cents to pay for the monthly vocal+ fee I do not want to lose all of my hard ass work. I cannot let my effort go down the potty.