LOVE LIFE

Hey everyone, welcome back to my blog! Today I want to talk about something that's been on my mind lately: my love life. Yes, you read that right. I know some of you might be surprised or curious, since I don't usually share much about this topic online. But I feel like it's time to open up a bit and let you in on what's going on with me and my heart.

So, as some of you may know, I've been single for a while now. And by a while, I mean almost two years. Yup, it's been that long since I broke up with my ex, who shall remain nameless for the sake of privacy. It was a mutual decision, but it still hurt like hell. We had been together for three years, and we had a lot of good times and memories. But we also had a lot of issues and conflicts that we couldn't resolve. We grew apart, and we realized that we wanted different things in life. So we decided to end things before they got worse.

I won't lie, it took me a long time to heal from that breakup. I went through all the stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I cried a lot, I ate a lot of ice cream, I listened to sad songs, I watched rom-coms, I talked to my friends and family, I wrote in my journal, I went to therapy. I did everything I could to cope and move on. And eventually, I did. I learned to love myself again, to enjoy my own company, to appreciate my independence, to pursue my passions and goals.

But that doesn't mean I stopped wanting love. No matter how happy and fulfilled I am with myself and my life, I still crave that connection and intimacy with someone else. Someone who gets me, who supports me, who challenges me, who makes me laugh, who makes me feel alive. Someone who is not only my lover, but also my best friend and partner in crime.

And that's where the problem lies. Because finding that someone is not easy. Especially in this day and age, where everything is so fast-paced and superficial. Where people swipe left or right based on a picture and a bio. Where people ghost or breadcrumb or bench or whatever other term they use to describe their lack of commitment or communication. Where people have unrealistic expectations or standards or dealbreakers. Where people are afraid of being vulnerable or honest or loyal.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that online dating is bad or that there are no good people out there. I'm sure there are plenty of amazing people who are looking for the same thing as me. And I'm not saying that I'm perfect or that I don't have any flaws or baggage. I'm just saying that it's hard to find someone who matches with you on every level: physical, mental, emotional, spiritual.

And trust me, I've tried. I've tried different dating apps and websites. I've tried going out more and meeting new people. I've tried blind dates and speed dating and singles events. I've tried being more open-minded and flexible and adventurous. And while I've met some nice people along the way, none of them really clicked with me. None of them made me feel that spark or chemistry or butterflies in my stomach.

So what do I do? Do I keep trying? Do I give up? Do I settle? Do I wait? Do I hope? Do I pray? Do I manifest? Do I change?

I don't know the answer to these questions. All I know is that I'm not giving up on love. Because love is the most beautiful and powerful thing in the world. Because love is worth fighting for and waiting for and risking for. Because love is what makes life worth living.

So until then, until I find my person, my soulmate, my other half, I'll keep living my life to the fullest. I'll keep working on myself and growing as a person. I'll keep cherishing the people who are already in my life and who love me unconditionally. And most importantly, I'll keep loving myself.

Because at the end of the day, that's what matters the most.

Thank you for reading this post and for being part of my journey. Let me know in the comments if you can relate to anything I said or if you have any advice or stories to share about your own love life. And don't forget to subscribe to my blog for more updates and content!

“Goodbyes are not forever, they are just a new beginning. A new chapter in your life waiting to be written. Embrace it with open arms and make it the best one yet.” -