Love is my saviour

Back about a few months ago. I was not in an overly good state of mind. I was staying up for days, eating smaller and smaller amounts of food every day, pushing people out of my life. I did not want to even try to live anyomore.

I was pushed and pushed by people on a daily basis. They did not care about how I was feeling, or what their actions would cause. All they were wanting was a reaction from the person that they were putting down. I guess that you could say I was their “prey”.

I was in such a dark and lonely place that I wanted to just give up. I did not want to take the effort to try anymore if I was just going to be constantly put down and shamed for my state of mind.

I was told that I was just making up excuses, that depression is not real, that I was lying so that I could get attention. But I was just seeking for help. I was just not sure that I actually wanted it.

One day, after being pushed past my limit, I thought to myself. “You know what, I’ve had enough of this, I’m done trying”. That night, I was going to pass away. But before that day ended, someone came into my life.

At first, she was just another person to me, someone that I thought would be just like all the other people that hated me for no reason and actually wanted me to pass away. But almost immediately I noticed that there was something different about her, and I got this feeling that oddly made me want to stay to see what kind of a person she truly was.

After a few days past by, we had talked a lot. I got to know her and started to trust her. She understood what I was feeling and she understood the state of mind that I was in. She would always check up on me to see how I was doing and if I needed to talk about anything that was bothering me. She was always there for me.

After a few moths had past. We began to like each other more than we had thought. I started to really care about her, And she started to really care about me. By now we were talking almost all day, every day.

And after all of what had happened in those past months. We realized that we loved each other. And I for one can say that I love her more than I have ever loved anyone in my life.

Her and I have been with each other for a while now. And have been talking about our future together. We have talked about moving in with each other, marrying each other, and so on.

After talking about all of that, we had a heart to heart conversation. And we both felt the same way about each other. So after we had our heart to heart conversation. And I am not afraid to say it. She propose to me. She told me that I am the only person that has ever made her as happy as I do. And that I am able to make her that happy ever single day. And she does the very same for me.

She makes me so happy that I cry just thinking about how lucky I am to have her in my life. And better yet, to now be able to call her my fiancé.

She is the reason I am still here. In a way, she saved my life. And I will be eternally grateful for her doing so.

I am going to spend the rest of my days making her the happiest woman on this planet. I will do whatever it takes to make her happy and be able to see a smile on her face every day for the rest of my life.