Lost Vision

Should I Stay Or Should I Go? The Question Remains & I Just Don’t Know. It’s been a never ending road, no happiness nor success. I feel I’m getting tired. I feel as I should rest. I’m on this journey of searching for my soul. What am I searching for? What are my goals? Ever felt lost in your life before? Sometime feel as though you’re searching for more? Seems as if you’re on this straight narrow path. But how many years have passed, you do the math. I’m sitting here waiting for happiness to hit. I’m sitting here thinking with all my candles lit. Round and round in circles I go. When does it stop does anyone know? I can see if I was spinning and actually moving someplace. Yet I’m just spinning right now at a very slow pace. Anticipating you, would make some kind of move. Keep me ambitious. Keep me in the groove. Instead you’re stuck on stupid whereas your mind is unable to flow. To keep you in the direction of moving toward the light. Keep you in tuned and teach you how not to lose sight. Remind you of the things, God has blessed you with. Keeping you in tuned, with things unlike a myth. Instead of searching for answers you’re digging for gold. Not realizing time is passing, you’re starting to grow old. I need to keep searching for the answers to the questions of my mind. I forget who I am, I forgot who I be, but I feel it coming... My self-worth will find me.

If I can share a message with the youth today, especially young women since that is who I relate to mostly. One of my messages would be: “Trust the words of wise ones that have walked the walk of the path you may be heading down.” When you’re young and just starting to understand the basic teachings in life. The dues and the dont’s of what your rules of your home are. You’re young, you know nothing About the true scope and intensity of life and all of the heartache that can appear throughout ones lifetime. You see I was just a young girl, when I say young I mean seven-year-old young. In my heart, and my little seven-year-old heart I just knew how much I loved this boy. My father, this amazing strong Phenomenal king of our family knew A whole lot of what I did not. I wrote this poem at a time in my life where I was so uncertain yet extremely certain on the choices that I made thus far. I was hurting, I was crying, I was searching every which way I could for the answers that I knew I needed to escape what would be the rest of my life, based on my choices. My super, strong-willed, independent young woman personality walked me in the direction of what some may call a “Hard Knocked Life.

I have so much more to share. Therefore, there will be many more short stories and writings to come. Those in which I pray will get into the minds of our youth, that may have chosen that same exact path that I walked on for years. If I can stop a teenage pregnancy. If I can stop a young woman from crying her heart out for a person that has zero desire of spending the rest of their life with her. If I could help one individual see their self-worth before they allow someone to break their spirit down. One of my many purposes is in life will become fulfilled.

From the ink filled pages throughout the many Beautiful collections of books I have aquired throughout the years that were just blank pages until life happened. I look forward in sharing with you what I call: “Through One Woman’s Eyes”.