Living Colorful in a Black & White World.

“I’m starting to hate this town”.

I didn’t reply to what he said but I heard it and even if he didn’t feel it, I felt it. We were just hanging out, smoking a joint on the road. I could’ve just been high but those five words were so deep and I thought “what a great way to start an article.” See even though I'm an eighteen year old girl I don’t go to community college, or any college to be exact. So I need something to occupy my mind. Not my head - I could zone out for hours, but my mind. When you write a lot everything turns into a scene and if it’s not a scene it’s an idea for one. Anything could happen when you write a book, there are no limits. You can express your dreams or you can express your greatest fears. It will still always be a good read because you know what you like. You are your own biggest supporter and your own worst critic. If you are proud, you have succeeded even if others don’t understand what the words on the page mean. You do. And you know how it feels. How it truly feels. No matter what you’re writing for, enjoyment, a book, or simply for stress relief it doesn’t matter how other people feel or what others say about your writing. It is all opinions. And as hard as it is to decipher opinions and facts nowadays - there still is a huge and important difference. At the end of the day It’s how you feel and what you say about your own work. It is work. Writing isn’t something that comes naturally. Sure anybody can write but to be descriptive and actually halfway decent takes time, practice and patience. People in this town are too absent minded to talk about interesting things like their feelings or conspiracy theories. All the people in this town think of what's going to happen next. It’s easy to think that type of way. Next i’m going to light up a cigarette. Lit. But nobody wants to stir up an hour long conversation about something that’s pointless. If it doesn’t benefit them then what’s the point? Therefore in this town you have to talk to yourself and I hope those thoughts end up on paper so I can read them. What happens in the next town though? What are you going to say when you realize everybody is the same? You can change your house, your town, your school and your job but you will see how every human being - acts the same way. And it will upset you. Don’t get me wrong I am not a depressing person and I am not trying to spread negativity. That’s just simply how it is.

It’d be nice to have a intelligent and informational conversation with someone around my age. Unfortunately that is very rare for my age group and if I do get the chance to do that someday I will be very surprised. There's so many mysteries in the world that go unexplained and those mysteries are what interest me. Like the Bermuda triangle, If aliens are just make believe, what happened to Amelia Earhart. Things that we will never find out. That is the sad truth. Well, at least not in this century. Maybe a couple decades later a human will come in contact with a “unexplained being” but who will believe them? Because we all know Aliens are just made up for horror movies. That's what close minded people would say.

I come out of my zone and hear him mumbling.

“The aliens are not among us, that’s why we haven’t found any life forms”.

“Yeah I’m starting to hate this town too”. I whisper