I wish I had never loved you, but why did I meet you again

I don't know why one day I will go to this place where no one knows me to write these things. Maybe it is because there are many things in my heart and depressed for a long time, or maybe the recent events make me feel uneasy when I should be calm.

All I know is that this is probably the only place where I can vent my feelings without fear.

The BUILDING OWNER this YEAR 26, THE UNIVERSITY GRADUATED FOUR YEARS, now in the hometown of a certain organ unit is doing a relaxed and stable job, every day from nine to five.

This is not the life I had expected. I had dreamed that I could hold the whole world. I never thought I would be so used to settling in a small cubicle.

It's just that a lot of change really only takes place overnight.

All my peers around me are busy making blind dates and getting married these years, while I myself have never made any waves in my life since I ended my relationship two years ago.

The days passed numb and dull. I thought I had moved on from the past. I thought I would never see him again.

I didn't expect fate.

Three or four months ago, our unit got involved in a new local project.

One day, I heard a colleague mention a company that won the bidding. The colleague said that the company was not well-known in the industry, with poor archives and a thin resume, but finally it quietly won the biggest piece of cake in the project.

This kind of thing is not unusual, because anyone can guess the reason, so no one looked into it, I didn't notice.

One day the leader, Sister V, asked me to accompany her to attend a meeting related to this project.

There were dozens of people from different organizations and departments, large and small, attending the conference. The company my colleague mentioned also sent someone to attend.

In this way, I met an old friend, J.

He is an outside lawyer of that company.

But I know J because he's the guy's friend.

J and I didn't really know each other very well, we only met a couple of times a little over two years ago, but I think I'll have a hard time not remembering him for the rest of my life, because of something.

He was probably surprised to see me, too, and stared at me for a long time before he realized it.

I finally said hello first. It was me.

He was very embarrassed to smile at me and said, really almost didn't recognize you.

I really believe this is not a polite remark, after all, when he met me, I was going through the most painful and hopeless stage of my life, at that time, even I do not dare to recall my appearance.

We didn't talk much, sat far apart during the meeting, and just said a quick goodbye on the way out.

Back to the unit on the road V sister asked me, you and that J lawyer know?

I said, long time ago, a friend of a friend, not very well.

Sister V said that it is better to know each other than not know each other. In the future, you should be more involved in the docking with their company.

I understand Sister V's intention. In this project, our department plays the role of offending people, but this time I don't know what the reason is. Sister V wants me to learn something from J.

I didn't hesitate to say yes.

Although I don't want to get involved with people from the past, in my opinion, J is only an outside lawyer, and his involvement is limited. I don't think we will have much contact.

I never thought I would meet that person one day.