I don’t understand

I don’t understand why I cant wake up in the morning and live my life without the thoughts in my mind becoming such a burden that I feel paralyzed

I don’t understand what other people want

what they are thinking

what can I do

But why don’t i think about what I want

is that not the most important thing

I don’t understand

I don’t understand why the world is like this and why no one has done anything

do the people in control really not care about my feelings

I don’t understand how for some the pain of the world is too much to bare while others brush it off and move on

I do understand

I understand too deeply

I do understand

Im just a teenager

I realize now more than ever that adults are unhappy because it was always like this

my parents grew up surrounded by the trauma of the world

without hope of people changing

its not fair

we were told this was a new generation

things were going to change

people were supposed to be able to be themselves

but as I grow up I learn with every encounter that the world lacks empathy

If the people with the power to make change on a big scale had true empathy

they would not live so selfishly

they would understand how I understand

I want the world to understand

my understanding should not be traumatizing, it should not be controlling my life

i’m not ok with this

if we are all human fucking beings

why do we not all deserve to have a say

I know now why the world works like this

and I see why it hasn’t changed

Im never going to stop thinking of ways to make a difference

Im not who anyone else thinks I am

I am me and only I can decide that

Life has shown me that no matter how well you think you understand someone there is always thoughts they will leave unheard