High on Love

Loving a person takes so much. At times you don’t get that love you want back. Love is like a roller coaster. You can be so high up you think you’ll never come down.

I was that girl. I finally had my first boyfriend. Everything changed so fast. I started taking more time when it came to getting dressed. I always wanted him to see at my best. He always told me I looked beautiful. He like when I wore me hair down. He loved my natural curls.

After 6 months he told me he loved me. I was in shocked. I also have noticed my feelings became more,so I said it back. Than we made out for a very long time and of course you know what happened after. We had so much chemistry.

A few days went pass since our first sexual encounter. I was scared to ask did he like it, so I waited to see if he would bring it up. He didn’t. Two more days went pass not a word. I got a call and it was him asking to go to dinner. I said “ yes”. I told my self I will finally ask him.

He picked me up about 7 and we went to a place called Gino’s. We ordered, he looked at me and said “you look Beautiful as always”. I said “thank you”. I took a drink from my water trying to think about how I was going to ask him. He broke the silence first. He asked did I need anything. I told him no. Than I said “ can I ask you something”. He said “ sure”. So my heart started pounding super fast. He just looked at me, waiting to ask the question. I quickly said “did you like it.” He laughed a little. He answered and said “he loved it”. I felt embarrassed. Than he said we have a lot chemistry. I agreed. I felt relief.

We ate and decided that I will stay at his house tonight. On the drive home we agreed no sex. I want to feel loved even when we don’t I told him. He said “it was so much more”. At that point I was so in love.

Eventually the love high started to get low. After two years of being together we grew bored of each other. He told me he cared about me still but he wasn’t in love no more. I felt the same and we agreed on still being friends. Of course it was hard but I didn’t love him no more.