Hey Arthur

Saturday 15th April 2023

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Hey Arthur,

My beautiful baby boy. You are currently in the living room making a mess with all your toys. You love the ones that sing, and shine with the bright lights, as well as watching Shaun the Sheep - he brings such a delight. You are a little artist in the making despite all the mess, the things you draw make me feel very blessed. Although you don't read your books because you eat them instead, then you kick off your clean pillows and bounce on your bed!

You talk in a funny language that I do not speak, but when music is played you never miss that beat. You are loud, bright and bold, unafraid of making noise and doesn't do as he’s told. You have grown so quickly in just two years, and with each day that passes, I want to burst into tears. One day you won’t need me as you do now, and when that day comes I know I won’t be around.

I love your golden hair and big blue eyes, I love it when you laugh I hate it when you cry. The day you were born was a day I will never forget, one moment I had a bump and there you were on my chest. You just wanted to sleep, which I completely understand; you were two weeks early, and you held my finger with your hands.

When you were born, the world was closed; it was unprecedented, and we had to stay at home. It was just us three in our own little bubble, you your dad and me, away from all the trouble. I brought you into this world at a chaotic time, and I feel guilty for this, I will not lie. The world has changed a lot since I was a child, so you’ll have to forgive your dad and me as we figure this out. You’ll come to learn that you are part of history, one that feels never-ending and has caused many people great misery.

Yet despite all of this, I had you, my baby boy, you are my world now, you are my pride and joy. I've saved some coins that have the late Queen on them, and stamps that haven't been used. Some coins are copper, others shining silver; some going green - eww. I have printed off pictures just in case, so you have memories to hold, cherish and embrace. I kept the broken necklace I wore while I giving birth, including my fluffy socks as a screamed to the ends of the earth.

We nearly lost you in that delivery room your heartbeat dropped by half, I wasn’t sure what was happening I was surrounded by countless strangers in masks. I can hear the beeping on the monitor still and the taste of gas and air, I was completely naked as nature would have it, and god knows about my hair. While I cleaned myself up, you lay there with your dad, he blubbered like a smaller baby than you, he was so glad.

Everything was so quiet while the chaos raged on outside, your dad have to go home and it was then just you and I. I slept for nearly an hour on my first day as a mum, I held you in my arms for ages, and then I knew true love. Even though I may find it annoying the way you play with my tangled hair or how you pull on my dressing gown or throw things in the air. I miss you lying on my chest as you did for hours, now you wriggle and climb all over the place as you discover your new powers.

I am losing my energy as you are gaining yours, I will try to do my best, but sometimes life feels like a chore and I need to take a rest. But don’t trouble yourself too much, I want you to live free, as happy as you are night now, with maybe fewer bruises on your knees. I want you to be yourself and be comfortable with who you are, and accept others around you, as I know you have that sort of heart. Be loud my baby boy so the whole world can hear, don’t let anyone dampen your parade invite them to join instead with no fear.

I want you to never stop being bold or brave and never ever lose that gorgeous smile you have on your face -

Wait - here you come toddling along with your sippy cup and sticker thumbs. You're in the cupboard now pulling out your snacks but like a good little boy you put the things you don’t want right back. Ah... never mind, I spoke too soon, now you’ve found your old nappies, of course unused. I can’t believe how tiny they are and how they definitely won’t fit you now, I can’t believe that you are my baby boy, you don’t how I much I feel proud.

I hope by the time you read this I have helped the world in some way; one that’s free and doesn’t care who you are either way. I named you after a king who saw everyone as his equal, who set an example for all and who cared about his people. I want you to prepare you for life in every way shape and form, to give you a smart mind and a heart that’s warm. You my baby boy make everything worth it, and in return, I will build you a Camelot because you deserve it.

Thank you for making me the luckiest mum to ever walk this earth.

I love you, my darling boy -

Mum x

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