Hear My story

Everyone has it's own fantasy and meaning of true love in their life. Some of them think that true love is when you meet the right person to love and cherish you all his or her life but some of them think that love is about effort and commitment that he or she gave to make the relationship works. But for me all of my life is full of test of finding the meaning of true love

Well enough for introduction, now when i was a kid my parents especially my mother love to watch Bollywood movies. Most of the movies is about romance, from those movie i learn a little technique on how to express love.

When i was 7 years old i have a crush on my neighbor, his name is Johan(not a real name). In my eyes he is the most handsome guy in our neighborhood area. He has a charming smile like my favorite Bollywood artist Hrithik Roshan. He has a tan skin and his lovely brown color eyes. Most important his charming attitude and the fact that he love to smile. He was 3 years older than me. I have a crush on him almost 6 years.

When i reached 10 years old i decide to confess to him by writing a letter.

In that letter i wrote...

"Dear Johan, i have a confession to make since i was 7. i have a huge crush on you. I always waiting for you to walk by my house when you get back from school just to see you from far. I always playing in-front of your house and make noise so that i get your attention and you will came out join us to play. I love to see your smile. I love the color of your eyes. I just want to tell you that i like you. Please give me back this letter if you have done read it. and please don't tell anyone about this."

I always meet him during Quran reading class every night. So i gave him the letter and i told him please don't tell anyone about it. And he smile and said okay. I stare at him when he read i an only see he smiling. Right after he want to give me that letter back, Unfortunately, his brother snatch it away and read the letter too. And then he embarrassed me by telling all in the class my about it.I am so sad because my crush just sat in his chair and watch what his brother did to me. my heart torn apart. His brother tell me to see myself in the mirror. I know that i am not really pretty though back then i have a brown skin and i am a little bit messy. Johan only says sorry on the next day. And tell me that he only sees me as a sister not more than that.

The first lesson that i learn about loving is that don't rush in telling your feeling unless you have a sense that he might interested in you too. But at least i learn how to be brave and confess your feeling to your crush and it felt awesome just it's not ended in a good way for me. Be brave and take a chance if you want to find out the feeling of the person that you like.