Evolution

"It is important in life to conclude things properly. Only then can you let go." - Pi Patel

Writing twenty-two short stories was my way of giving my painful past a proper farewell.

In Annie Dillard's nonfiction narrative book, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek, she sees a water bug (a beetle, in fact) sucking the life out of a frog; she describes the frog as being "deflated like a football". I feel as though I was that frog and as I was sitting innocently on a river rock, singing my frog song, Life dealt me that Life Sucking Water Bug. I was injected with its vicious enzymes that liquified my insides and then the water bug sucked them out, leaving me a flattened pile of skin. Yet, here I am, still alive, writing to you, now.

Life as the Ultimate Dom. Let her spank you (or liquify your insides and suck you dry)… and then give you the utmost pleasure.

The most important thing I've learned is that if you're going to love Life you've got to love all of Her; you can't just love her when she's nice, you've got to love her when she's nasty, too. So, I've surrendered my fight against Life and embraced the fullness of her expression. She turned me into a flattened pile of skin and I respect that. I see her multifaceted ways now, and I'm into it. With a bow, I accept her invitation to play again. I'm game for Round Two. Let's Go.

"You get dragged down, down to the same spot enough times in a row

The bottom begins to feel like the only safe place that you know"

- Fiona Apple

I know the bottom well but what does it feel like to play on top? What's turning me on the most these days is possibility. Instead of the "Why's" I'm moving into the "What if's" …

Wonder, Awe & The Orgasmic

Now that I've checked Destruction off my list of things to learn about I am moving on to Wonder, Awe & The Orgasmic.

"And the ending of that story is the beginning of this story." - Snow & Rose, Emily Winfield Martin

"Ya never know what's comin' for ya" - The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

My current fascinations lie with Energy & Perception.

I first got into the study of energy because I was really struggling in my life and I needed help. I felt drawn to energy work even though my mind cried, “woo!”. Regardless of what my mind was telling me, I couldn’t deny the results. Nothing has supported me more in my life than energy work. So I kept studying and practicing. The funny thing is, energy work is not actually “woo” at all… it’s science. It’s physics. My mind loves physics. Blame my Aquarius Sun, Moon & Mercury in the 11th house.

The world of energy blows my mind because it makes me think, “if this is our true reality, then why are we living the way we are living?” It makes me think of how incredibly magnificent our world is and how we have not been living accordingly. One of my teachers says, “We are living on the cusp of an energy revolution”, and I feel she is absolutely right. The possibilities are pretty endless once we learn how to wield the world of energy.

"When you ask me how does science explain this, I think about how it must have been for people back in the 17th & 18th centuries. They used to see lightning but if you asked them if they believed in electricity they would have said no, they would have laughed at you. What I know is that our belief systems filter how we see reality and we use these belief systems and our perceptions to edit out the stuff that we're not comfortable with." - The Woman Who Can Talk To Animals

What do you think of when you hear the word energy? For me, Light comes to mind.

The Spectrum of Light

Visible Light is quite a small piece of the puzzle… there is a lot happening in the world that cannot be perceived with our two human eyes.

Light, Energy & Waves

"Light can also be associated with energy, and there also is a simple relationship of energy and wavelength." - Google

"Light is an electromagnetic wave in the electromagnetic field. It creates the electromagnetic spectrum, a continuum of different types of light that oscillate at different speeds."

"Waves, or particles operating in wave mode, oscillate, or swing between two points in a rhythmic motion. These oscillations create fields, which can, in turn, create more fields." - Cyndi Dale

"The Universe in which we find ourselves and from which we cannot be separated is a place of Law & Order. It is not an accident, nor chaos. It is organized and maintained by an Electromagnetic Field capable of determining the position and movement of charged particles." - Dr. Harold Saxton Burr

The World (including us) is Made Up of Sound, Light & Energy (Waves)

We are literally made up of energy, living in a Universe made up of sound & light waves (energy) that create never-ending Fields of Energy… I mean… for me this is where science is magic and magic is science. You can see the possibilities here, right?

"Snow & Rose didn't know they were living in a fairy tale- people never do." - Snow & Rose, Emily Winfield Martin

Everything in Nature has its own energy field; its own sound, its own color, its own language. We are all in constant communication with each other. We affect one another.

"Spooky Action at a Distance" : Einstein's Theory of Entanglement

"The "spooky action" that bothered Einstein involves a quantum phenomenon known as entanglement, in which two particles that we would normally think of as distinct entities lose their independence. Famously, in quantum mechanics, a particle's location, polarization, and other properties can be indefinite until the moment they are measured. Yet measuring the properties of entangled particles yields results that are strongly correlated, even when the particles are far apart and measured nearly simultaneously. The unpredictable outcome of one measurement appears to instantly affect the outcome of the other, regardless of the distance between them - a gross violation of locality." - Ben Brubaker, Quanta Magazine

In Anthroposophy, the electromagnetic wave that contains our experience is called The Life Wave (or Life Stream).

"Row, row, row your boat

Gently down the stream

Merrily merrily, merrily, merrily

Life is but a dream"

Riding The Life Wave (or Life Stream)

To have the best possible ride we need a strong surfboard (or boat). Your physical body is your surfboard (or boat). Your body is what carries you through the wave (or stream). Our physical bodies are made up of energy fields, so what we need for the best possible Life Experience are strong energy fields. A cracked surfboard is no good. There will always be Life Sucking Water Bugs but we have the ability to be delighted by such creatures once we have a proper understanding of why they exist. A strong energy field is the key to Greater Understanding.

"Electromagnetism underlies the entire Universe, but it cannot be separated from the subtle fields that might determine its actions." - Cyndi Dale

The Stairway to Heaven is inside of us.

Our body is an energy field (also called the Aura) containing multiple energy fields known as Subtle Fields. The Subtle Fields are connected to points in our physical bodies and these points are called Chakras. We've all heard about chakras by now, yes? Each chakra correlates to certain organs throughout the body and governs over different aspects of Life. Each layer of our energy field is its own field and holds different information. Our Lower Chakras correspond to the energy layers (or fields) closest to us while our Higher Chakras correspond to our Outer Layers (or fields). We want all our layers to be coherent so that we are communicating our true selves clearly to the surrounding world (other fields of energy). Trauma lives in our Lower Centers (chakras), or Inner Layers, and acts as a kind of cloud in our field, blurring our truth, blurring our vision. You want your Lighthouse (I like to call bodies Lighthouses) to attract your true desires, right? Not desires birthed through clouds of trauma. I think this is why so many people who appear successful on the outside feel empty on the inside. This is where we see endless consumption/hoarding billions of dollars/greed/narcissism coming into play… these things come from an inner emptiness. If we're unaware of our true desires we won't find real fulfillment and no amount of anything will be able to fill us up.

BLOCKS to X-Ray Vision (& other Superhero abilities) include childhood imprints (ancestral programs), baggage (unresolved trauma from this life or past lives), aura damage (drug & alcohol abuse).

“We see the world, not as it is, but as we are- or, as we are conditioned to see it. When we open our mouths to describe what we see, we in effect describe ourselves, our perceptions, our paradigms.” - Stephen R. Covey 

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional."

Clouds (blocks) in our energy field prevent us from knowing our true desires, causing distortion & suffering. Because we are all connected, we pick up things from one another (and society at large), especially as children, and because we Humans are coming into a New Evolutionary Phase, most of what we picked up as kids was misinformed (Blame the Dark Age). If we hold on to this misinformation, if we don't let go of false beliefs, if we don't heal our Wounded Inner Children, then we are missing out on our highest ride, settling for something mediocre at best; desires birthed through clouds that leave us unfulfilled.

I wish this is what I was taught in school, maybe then I would have been interested. Had my teacher been like, "Hey kids! Welcome to Life! We are magical energy beings living in a magical world of energy waves where we can create anything we desire and here's how to attune your energy body so you know who you really are (what you really want; not what your family or society tells you you want) and can have the best experience, ever!" I would have been so in.

Wouldn't it be great if we had schools and a society that honors Life?! What if our government, instead of spending over $1 trillion dollars on war (death), spent over $1 trillion dollars on Life?? On making our lives better. Isn't that what government is for? What could we do with $1 trillion dollars?! Maybe we could start with the basics: clean food, water & housing for everyone. What a concept. This whole idea of lack we've been sold is a lie. Once everyone is fed and homed (basic human rights), we could move on to large scale community enhancing projects like frequency towers that emit healing frequencies rather than damaging ones, community gardens and land restoration, free community Sound (energy) Healing concerts, Grief Rites, Rage Rituals, Celebration Ceremonies that cycle with the phases of our lives, the phases of the Moon & what we are all learning on a collective level!!! What if we had free energy? What if we had a cohesive, collective understanding of what Life and being a Human Being is all about? There is absolutely no reason we can't create a world where Life is honored. What if our societal structures encouraged healthy and peaceful ways of being? What if war was illegal? What if profiting from illness was illegal? What if poisoning our planet was illegal? Our current structural systems are not supportive of Human Coherence or The Life Wave. Our systems should support Human Evolution, not discourage it. We don't want systems birthed through clouds. We want systems born from those who can see clearly.