Do you ever miss the embrace?

Hey, you; yes, you, the random human reading my story - ever been in a relationship and then that relationship ended? Maybe it was a great friendship that fell down a slippery slope. Maybe it was a family member who passed away or, perhaps, even walked away. Maybe it was what seemed like the most beautiful, romantical, intimate relationship that ever existed! Aaaaand then they ended it. Or... maybe you ended it? Either way, you were once in a relationship with someone and now you're not. There are some days you might suddenly think of that person and wonder long and hard about what they might be up to, how they are doing, if they're actually still alive, or what their cousin Sally is really doing for a living post comedy school... Yikes, the day dreaming is, in and of itself, a slippery slope! So, anonymous reader - does that sound like you? Yeah... I get ya!

If you intend to keep reading, what follows my little addition to the countless number of rants about the end of one of those relationships. In this case it was one of those "romantical" ones that, when I was in it, made me feel like I should be floating on a cloud everywhere I went for the first few months. Here is my attempt at expression of that longing for the warmth of the embrace, but not for the person who gave it to you... I wish you well on your journey - enjoy!

Do you ever just miss the embrace?

I mean, once you know that feeling of someone's arms being wrapped around you it is nearly impossible not to crave it.

It is one of the few things that is every bit as good as when you imagined it; somehow it meets, and sometimes, exceeds every expectation you had in your dreams about it!

That rush of excitement, nervousness, happiness, and security that overcomes you all at once the first time he sneaks up from behind to embrace you and steal a kiss on your neck...

but THEN it's not just the first time...

Every

Single

Time

his hand brushes your waist you suddenly find yourself floating briefly in that moment of pure bliss and you cannot imagine anything else being better than this!

Right now.

This moment.

This feeling.

warmth, safety, belonging, love...

Is it real?

How could it not be?

When EVERY TIME he touches you

you're suddenly whole.

It IS real! Isn't it?

Then the days come when he never sneaks up behind you to hold you anymore.

All you wish is to feel that embrace again - just for a moment... okay, maybe a few!

Soon enough the desire fades; and each time of respite lasts a little longer than the last...

I have heard that it goes away completely.

Eventually.

I suppose I just haven't gotten there yet!

The pain goes away, then the attraction, then the fantasy, but not neccessarily in that order.

For now, I am still waiting for the longing to fade and that I could feel whole in myself again.

Yes, I still miss the embrace; but, I do not miss him.

Perhaps I'll find someone new, someone whose touch lifts me higher than his ever did or could!

A girl can certainly dream...

Until then I will keep braving this craving for that warmth, that safety, that belonging, that illusion of real love...

In the meantime, however, let's raise a glass and say HERE'S to the gals soaring high with

or WITHOUT

his embrace! I plan to meet you in those clouds after awhile, my friends. Till that time comes I suppose I'll just keep longing!

Do you ever just miss the embrace?

UGH, I sure do! It's almost annoying...

Maybe it's just me... either way

I'll find my way to that moment when it really is REAL.

When his love is what gives me the rush, and not just his touch...

I'll see you one day, love; and you can bet I am looking forward to flying in those clouds

together.

That will be real.

That will be true.

Yeah, I'll embrace it when it comes - then I will never let you go!

We'll remain dreamers forever intertwined together in that embrace we've both longed for...

the one we were made for...

Do you ever just miss the embrace?

Me too, my friend, me too...

I thank you for sharing in my wee story; now, go out and continue to, or even start to, live yours ;)

Peace, Love, and God Bless,

E.