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Buried in Life

A journey into the unknown

By Patrick WadePublished 4 years ago 3 min read
Buried in Life
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I feel stuck in my current state, or in other words, buried in life.

I am 21 years old, working as a store manager for a big coffee chain. Overall, I live a nice life, have a good apartment, a nice car, a girlfriend, and a cat.

A life that many would dream of, but I hate it for some reason. Despite having everything I have ever wanted or at least thought I did, I'm longing for more. I don’t find true purpose and enjoyment in my job, it pays very well for my area and age to the point where it feels almost impossible to leave. I feel like I am barely scraping by. I have dreams of owning a house, finding a job that gives me true purpose, and living a meaningful life but after 5 years of the same day-to-day life, I am burnt out, tired and depressed. Every day seems like a constant fight and belonging for more.

For everyone familiar with "The Buried Life" which was a show from around 2010 that I fell in love with, which perfectly describes my passion and desire to chase my dreams, no matter the cost. I remember coming home from school and fanaticizing that my life may one day look like that. I would spend hours on end, watching youtube, researching travel destinations, making plans of what I would do when I turned 18, the places I would see, and the dreams that I would hold onto.

18 came very quickly, and even though the passion was still there, the dreams seemed to move further and further away to the point where I didn't know how to make them happen. One thing leads to another which leads to another and all of a sudden, 4 years have passed and if you are anything like me, I feel as lost and hopeless about my future as ever before. I refuse to settle. The thought of maintaining my current lifestyle and living without accomplishing my dreams, desires, and goals, absolutely terrifies me.

My life has been filled with a lot of uncertainty, being undecided on a career and never truly knowing what my place is in the world, but the one certainty is my extreme desire to travel the world. My love and passion for travel sprouted at a young age, Disney trips, Cruises, and vacations were the norm in the early years of my life.

While writing this, I don’t know what my future will look like, but this is the year I have promised myself change and change is what I will chase. I have had some ideas of saving money to launch businesses or maybe buying and converting a van to move out of my apartment and travel.

We all have a starting point, we all need to go through discovery phases and find ourselves and our pathway. This is my starting point, The place where My journey begins, and although it most likely will be extremely difficult it is a change that I know I want and need.

I write this because I know many are living with the same thoughts, desires, and feelings. I hope this inspires change.

I'm not sure what my next steps will look like, but in the words of Lao Tzu, “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step”

Although my path may not be clear, I have decided it is time to take my first steps. Who knows what they may be? But every step leads somewhere and I will be writing my experiences to share with you here.

See you next time!

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