Also, belong to love

The encounter with his wife was done entirely under the arrangement of his family and the matchmaker, and at that time he was completely hazy and inexplicably looking forward to loving. I can't choose the passage of time of my youth but I have no wise judgment in choosing the home of love. The immaturity of the mind and the impulsiveness of the character also caused disharmony and psychological betrayal in the future days.

I lamented the chain reaction caused by the rise and fall of the family, understood the pressure of social trends in different degrees, witnessed the extreme psychological depression of my father's old age before his death, and lamented the efficiency of my mother's daily work in her small body. I had to accept this worldly baptism in silence.

It does not matter that communication and exchange are just a traditional way of going through the motions. At that time, I only thought she was recognized in the village as a capable and honest woman. Because it is the introduction of the same village and the two families are not far from each other so the procedure is also much simpler. In fact, at that time, the understanding of the wife is not at all said to know. Because her family is old and powerless natural she is the only physical person who also dropped out of school early to work at home farming I read more than ten years of books, for her is just hard. So we went on a date, the countryside is not like the city with parks and cafes and entertainment venues. We were just talking together in the evening by the bridge outside the village when no one was around. I remember the first time she was so silent that she almost provoked her anger. The last thing you need to do is to be comfortable with yourself. It is the nature of women to be shy and reserved. That night we were not happy. The town has an all-night movie for the first time for a woman to spend the ten dollars ready to buy books to buy two movie tickets at the right time to her. Of course, she was on time and she was forty minutes late, asking her to know that it was dark to finish her farm work before she gave her parents. I didn't care because I had to ride my bicycle to catch nearly ten kilometers of road. I walked to my destination and the movie had already started, so I led her to a seat and sat down in the dark and slowly wiped my sweat and gasped with excitement. They only look for the excitement of the super era and the pursuit of a romantic mood for the storyline simply do not care to appreciate. Hearing her rapid breathing and unaccustomed movements, she pulled her to the lounge to quench her thirst with a cup of tea. In the lounge for the first time in the light to see her 。。。。。 I suddenly felt that this ordinary can not be ordinary behavior is not what they are seeking. There is no hint of style, no lover's passionate snuggle, originally in the heart of the prepared program, and naked language suddenly disappeared a little bit of interest, I froze, numbed. Hate yourself shocked, cold... The reason is that all of it is not as good as the heart portrays. These did not show up at the time, just then silenced themselves and hated themselves 。。。。 Of course, that night we went home very early without the so-called all-nighter.

The next day will be to parents to put up a fight, at that time the parents in the face of the dead conservative this undeserved storm, siblings out of care for me not to let me go out, the father daily sitting in a chair smoking a kind of helpless anger... For the unknown love I face the vast night sky alone contemplating can not find the right way out, finally or mother with a kind of consultation and woman's grieving tone said a common can not be ordinary words; honest, live a good life. So I accepted that lively and heartbreakingly bitter wedding. My parents thought it was a good start.

A good start is their own unsatisfied with the status quo in the silence of self-loathing, a good start is two people putting on a smile during the day and night in the same bed to let the silence accompany each other until dawn, a good start is a woman a hundred dependence and they do not reveal the helplessness pretended inside 。。。。 If you know that a good beginning is such an ending, a good beginning will always begin. If you know that this good beginning produces such a result then you will make a determined fight and refuse this good beginning. My parents had good intentions, they thought that by giving me a good start, they had fulfilled their special mission and that the environment they created for their offspring would be a chain reaction of smooth sailing. At that time, I did not make a permanent struggle for this good start, also because I did not understand the concept of love at that time.

The good start went on unknown, and the good start took the road to the right track in life. So I emerged as a new identity in society, family, and among my offspring, and also amid the storm felt love, and only love is rich and endless brilliant and glorious, and only love keeps on, the story keeps on...

Always look at love as great and sacred, always look forward to romance and flowers, always maintain a poise full of manly flavor, when all this smoke dissipates only then fiercely feel the balance of mind and expectation, the harmony of life and days...

The great thing is love, which does not belong to me.