A walk through memory lane.

Someone screaming "wake up" sounds so far away, but really right in front of you. Can't open your eyes, for your eyelids are too heavy. Breathing weak, barely staying alive. You might be asking yourself what I'm talking about. Do I really know how to answer that? No, but if you keep reading you'll eventually figure out most if not all your questions.

Let's start from age 15 where everything started to change. This was probably the best and worst year of my life. Everyone always say friends come and go, that you can't trust everyone. I believed that but not that much when I only considered like five people my friends. But even that small amount can change and switch up on you. Believe me I know from experience. The funny thing is once their done being friends with you, they start hanging out and becoming friends with the people y'all talked the most stuff about. Never trust anything people say. This person in particularly told me it's weird to not talk to me and they hope it never happens again, but the next week they quit talking to me and have nothing to do with me. Let me ask y'all a quick question. Would you believe some one who doesn't like you and you don't like them over the person you known the longest who's practically your best friend? Most of y'all probably said best friend, but no this persons gonna believe the person who doesn't even like them over me but the thing she fail to realize is I don't care and the people she talks to only know her because of me. I don't even care that she doesn't want to be friends anymore, but she's gonna need something from me one day and I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna be hesitant maybe make her suffer a little but I'm not petty if I once was cool with you and you need something just let me know, life still goes on regardless if we like each other or not.

I've been talking to this guy for five months. Some people telling me he's not worth it to leave, others saying it's worth it, some saying he cares others saying he doesn't so on and so on. I did any and everything this person asked me to do. If he needed money I gave it to him (for weed) I've walk miles just to "hangout" with him which really means him playing me and acting like he cared long enough to get the money he needed and left me to walk all the way back home. He acts like he loved me behind close doors when no one was around, but when people were around he acted like he didn’t know me. We played this game for over five months until someone came around and showed me something good something better then him. I was treated like a human and not played like a game.

My best friends been with me though everything. If I've ever needed anything they were there for me. When I was going through "heart break" they were there. When I would go on endless rants talking about things, they would listen even though I know they didn’t really care about what was going on in my life they only “cared” and listened because I'm there best friend and they love me. Scratch all that only one of them are still there for me. I was replaced by the other one, but as you can probably tell by now I’m use to it. I use to have the biggest heart and the most loving person but now I could honestly care less about people or feelings.