Chloe strolled down the grassy hill, painted gold in the morning sun. The lake awaited at the bottom; light softly undulating with the waves. Strands of her dark hair tickled her nose and forehead in the breeze. With a stomach full of knots, she thought, I shouldn't be this nervous! She took a deep breath and continued forward while blades of grass caressed her sandaled feet.
The last few years had been difficult. More than that, they had been devastating. Her marriage fell apart, and Kevin wasted no time in serving her with divorce. No drama and no chance at conciliation. Just done. She never knew how quickly, how irreversibly, a life together could dissolve.
The tech company Chloe worked at for the last five years went through a transition in management. She became a victim of the subsequent house cleaning. She found work at the local shelter, and the though work was rewarding, she couldn't see herself there long-term.
Through all this, she became more isolated. She refused to visit friends and family. She made excuses not to go out, and even more to not have anyone over. She replied to text messages days, or even weeks after they were originally received.
She recently realized how very alone she was after finding herself weak and miserable with the flu. She picked up the phone to call a friend to drop off some Gatorade and Saltines but found no one in her contacts she wanted to call. She hadn't talked to anyone frequently enough to feel comfortable asking for a favor. That night Chloe cried, and vomited, and cried some more.
She tried joining a few clubs: knitting, swimming, reading and some others. Everyone was kind to her, but she struggled to make any real connections. She caught herself lying about her interests and thoughts to earn their approval.
She laughed at inside jokes she never seemed privy to, just to be a part of the group. They must have sensed her loneliness, or more likely, Chloe's desperation because they always smiled politely but never invited her for drinks.
Finally, she gave herself a good look and took an inventory of the last decade. Who was she? Who did she want to be? She paged through the yearbook from her senior year of high school searching for who she used to be. Chloe stared at her own photograph and a sense of longing welled up in her chest.
The girl pictured was a little awkward, yes, but she wore a confident smile and her eyes were bright. The woman in the mirror couldn't boast as much. Her eyes were lined with heavy, dark circles. Her skin was blotchy and her hair badly needed a trim. She'd chewed her nails to the quick. She vaguely remembered the younger Chloe, and although that girl was happy, she needed to figure out who she wanted to be as an adult.
In her club meetings, she focused, not on the people around her, but on herself. Swimming was a chore she couldn't abide. The chlorine stung her eyes, and it was all she could smell the rest of the day. It was a relief to remove it from her schedule.
She loved to knit and read, however, and found solace in these activities. She sent her cousins each a knitted hat as a way to open communication and discovered they missed her as much as she missed them.
She started journaling and visiting new places. She kept a modest blog of her adventures and swelled with pride when someone found it useful. She got in touch with friends she cherished growing up and laughed again like she didn't remember she could. She felt ready for the next step.
Smiling wistfully, she set her picnic basket down on the wooden pier. The sun was lower on the horizon, painting the sky in reds, oranges, and pale blues. Preparing for the most important first date she would ever have, she pulled out grapes, cheese, crackers, and wine.
She watched as the first evening stars awoke from their daylight slumber, while pouring herself a glass of merlot. She wrapped a quilt around her shoulders and looked down at her reflection in the clear water.
Chloe smiled and said, "So, tell me about yourself."
About the Creator
A. Grace
I'm a writer, native to the Western U.S. I enjoy writing fiction and articles on a variety of topics. I'm also a photographer, dog mom, and nature enthusiast.


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