I love you.

I fell in love with you from the moment my eyes met yours. You were working like any other day. Helping customers, getting stray carts. Very charismatic. When you helped me at the counter, don't think I didn't notice the flirtatiousness in your voice and lingering movements. It seemed like forever before we finally had dinner together. The location was beautiful. You decided to go with an enriching Italian dish while I opted for something on the lighter side. I was less hungry for food and more for the incredible view of your smile and laugh.

The days were wonderful and the nights even better...so why? Why did you do it? The boxes. I noticed them. Did you think I wouldn't? The stacks started small and hidden. In the closet. Clothes missing here and there. Then in the kitchen. Instantly they would show up and just as fast they'd be gone.

You can't.

One night I received one of your hoodies. I knew you wanted me to have it but it still hurt me to hold it. I knew soon you'd be gone. There would be no more visiting you at work. No more flirting with you at dinner. No more nights getting to gaze upon you with loving eyes as you slept. But I can't stop you... Right?

Right?

Your last night. It would be the last night at your place. I will persuade you. Stay? I'll miss you. I need you. I love you. But your mind's made up and you head to bed.

I'll miss you.

Why won't you just stay? Won't you miss me? What about everything we had. Was it nothing? You can just throw us away?

I need you.

I won't be able to go on without you. What will I do with this empty space once you're gone? Replace you? I could never. There will never be someone like you. I need you to bring sunshine on my dark days. I need you there on my lonely nights. You can't go!

I love you.

I didn't spend all my time with you for nothing. I didn't think we were nothing. We were everything. I loved you and even what others would call your faults. The way you slurp when you eat. You're a mess when you think no one is watching. Cute. The way you pile your dirty clothes in the closet when you're not expecting company. Not a bother. Even when you would bring other girls home. I didn't mind. I made sure they didn't leave things after they had gone. I loved you.

It was...IS my job to look after you. Who cares if at dinner we were never at the same table. I like for you to have your alone time. Or if you never remembered my name. I know work can get hectic. Or that we never slept together. I wanted you to get the best sleep you could. So I slept in the closet. It's ok cause I love you.

Even now with you looking up at me standing at your bedside. The expression on your face hurts. You act as if you thought I'd just abandon you. I could never. I love you.

At least I was able to finally persuade you. You just had some...conditions. You'd stay but you'd only talk to me. I'm sorry everyone else doesn't know this but I'm so glad to hear you trust me that much. You've also decided that you'd rather lead a spoiled-husband lifestyle. That's ok. I enjoy being the only one who leaves the house. I get to provide for you in all the ways I've ever wanted.

It's been almost a year since we started our new life. It's ok. But it's sad. You don't smile the way you used to. Nor do your eyes shine like they used to. Since you refuse to eat or move you had gotten pasty and started to smell. Now we barely spend time together. I think this might be the end of us. Your greyed eyes don't bring me the same joy they used to. I haven't seen your smile since we left your place. And your flies have begun to really irritate me.

I packed a small bag. I don't need much. I'll just move to another city so we won't run into each other. That would be awkward. But remember this...

I will always love you.