The school grass has fallen

My friend was shooting a short film, and I went to help him choose the actors. It was a movie about kids, so we were at the gate of a middle school, posing like a talent scout, waiting for the school bell to ring, and from the flood of post-90s, we were choosing actors who were suitable for different roles.

We quickly secured a target from a group of boys with all-powerful manners. Is a look indifferent lazy boys, bag straps, about to droop to the ground, but still unknowingly, a person still walking forward, there is not fit in the lonely and proud, like a friend's script written in a single parent family out of the child.

I made my way through the heavy crowd and intercepted him at the door just in time. He had just stepped onto his bike, one foot still on the ground, and when he saw my smile, he stopped and rang the bell instead of the question he wanted to say. Like a liar, I took out my friend's business card and script brief and said, we are going to shoot a short film, want to find actors, think you are suitable, I wonder if you are interested. He casually threw his business card into the basket of the car, and then lightly glanced at the name and content of the script. I wanted to know when he would be able to give us a reply, but he did not have adult politeness, only the usual lazy tone replied to me, I will see. Without waiting for me to get out of the way, he bypassed me, whistled an unknown name, and mingled with the crowd.

When my friends and I were disappointed with the little boy after 90 who didn't seem to be able to do anything, he suddenly called and didn't ask whether we had recruited any actors, and he looked like he knew we were waiting for him, saying that he had already thought of it and promised to play the role we needed.

Some of me worried for my friend whether it was a mistake to give such an important role to a boy who was obviously not a team player; What if, halfway through shooting, he willfully stopped acting, or if he did act, he was careless? This kind of little boy is obviously not afraid of anyone, or listen to anyone's orders. My friend shook his head and said with a smile, I don't think so.

The short film quickly went into production. In the afternoon, when I had nothing to do, I occasionally went to visit the class, and I would see the boy who was called A SAN by his friend, memorizing his lines, or a person in front of the mirror, rehearsing the plot that would need to be filmed. Compared with the noise and noise of other boys, his quiet, with a sense of distance that makes people feel inaccessible, I can hardly guess how his friend asked him to repeat the same sentence over and over again in front of the camera for 20 times, but he could never complain, or like some other boys, he dropped the script and turned to leave.

I remember watching the filming of one of the films in its entirety. It is about the small group in which a third is in order to sacrifice the reputation of one of his friends for their own interests, resulting in the boy being expelled from school, a third in the bathroom, yelling at these so-called brothers. Somehow, I and the people around me all felt that Ah SAN had played enough and almost lost my voice, but my friend always felt the lack of pain, so he let Ah SAN repeat it again and again, and finally, this short two-minute shot actually took an afternoon to finally pass. When the shooting was finished, the people around me had a clear look of resentment, saying that there was no need to shoot so many pieces, and it was almost OK, if it was not to win some international awards, it was just a 20-minute short film.

As the protagonist of the play, Ah SAN, after the end of the show, with only a little strength left, hoarse voice, ask friends whether he is a qualified actor. The friend, like a big brother, patted him on the skinny shoulder and said, A SAN, you're the best actor I've ever met, really. After this sentence, I saw Ah SAN smiling, lying on the ground, closing his eyes, but for a moment, he began to snore lightly.

16-year-old Ah SAN, like the characters in the movie, was born in a single-parent family, and his parents have a new home. In his mother's new home, he has a panic about what to do, but he uses a cold expression and a flirty demeanor to hide his loneliness and desire for warmth. The friends who saw through his disguise at a glance did not need traces of love, so that he slowly shed the hard shell, and held out a warm heart that had been frozen for a long time to the people who were worthy of his pay.

The first version of the short film clip came out when I went to watch it. In the dark small screening room, I saw on the screen that had not been met for a long time. His first shot was a close-up of him smiling at the camera. So light smile, because close enough to touch, across time and space to look at the past, always feel a trace of alienation. Just like he should have been indifferent, should have played with his friends in the rehearsal of children's temper, should be late and leave early, should be concerned about the meager remuneration, should be laughing and laughing, should be carried away, this is the expression of a third after 90, should have.

But I still from such a rare smile, see this little boy, in the left rushed right sudden youth troubles, hidden flexible Guanghua. It is such a temperature, so that in his most rebellious youth, he can be like a cypress tree in the mountains, or sycamore, growing as if no one, and has been the immature branches, out of the entangling of vines, or other branches of the obstruction, to become the publicized trunk of the insertion of the blue sky.

And this is the rough arc of growth of a lonely teenager like Ah SAN.

Don was a worthy student of our college days, and the girls who pursued him probably had an enhanced company. The students in our class also followed him full of happiness, every day to see the beauty in the classroom door hot and prowling. But Don never looked away, always holding his head high and posing coldly, passing the beautiful women.

The boys in the class are therefore jealous, said, do not know hunger, look at his proud little sample, be careful which day hair, lost this body good skin, standing in the street, kneeling and begging no women. Tang, of course, does not mind the boys' vinegar wind, as usual, a proud and lofty appearance.

But it is precisely Tang's indifferent expression, but to attract more girls' warm pursuit, in the end, the development of the siege, seriously affected Tang's daily life, Tang in addition to find a girlfriend as soon as possible, the end of the single, with a name grass owner label, there is no choice.

Tang quickly found his first girlfriend and became a full-time "waterman" and personal bodyguard. In fact, everyone can see that it is the girl who protects him from the danger of being mobbed by beautiful women. At this time, Tang, standing in the crowd, is still outstanding. Often a glance past, can effortlessly focus on his body.

And Don obviously also knows that his advantage is still eye-catching, so in front of his girlfriend, never grovel. Every time we quarrel, we have to argue three points, insist on the girlfriend, crying and begging him to change his mind. Such a good face, so that this looks like a good love, soon died.

After the death of love, Don continues to straighten his back and walk in the crowd, but no matter how cool he is, it always looks like something is missing. Like a plucked and caressed rose, it is faded and no longer fresh.

So at that time, we often joked that men, like women, had insurance periods, and once they had been unwrapped and used, they would not be far away from the time of withering. However, Tang himself did not feel that he was still standing luxuriously in the crowd, with the valor of a plump general carrying his belly and patrolling.

Tang, who always insisted on not "discounting", was like goods in a store, or the dollar before the financial crisis, which held up well for a while. He also took this to talk about one after another of the love, enjoy those who look crooked melon crack date boys can not hope for the beautiful time.

Two years later, when we graduated from college, Tang became a popular figure on BBS, alumni records or Kaixin001. Every time extremely boring, we always gossip for a while, talking about Tang's unforgettable romantic style, and with the bits and pieces of communication with him after graduation, pieced together a changing Tang.

At that time, I was the only student who was closest to Tang, so I was the perfect candidate for Tang's external spokesperson. There are often when Tang indifferent to the girl gossip asked me, today's Tang, there is no past flat look at the past, instant hit people's eyeball magic? There are also boys who are still jealous, saying that today's Tang, tortured by work, is afraid that there is no such a leisurely walk will attract countless beautiful women's charm.

Finally spare time, in order to live up to the expectations of many students, I plan to meet Tang, who has just become a father, and report him to everyone in a comprehensive way. Tang did not know the purpose, only thought it was an old classmate, and quickly agreed to meet, but in the specific joint location, the handsome man who has always been crisp, it was a slow up, a moment to say at the subway entrance, a moment to say at the baby products store, and a moment to say at the company door. In the end, I decided to go to a baby store, one way, and two ways to buy something for his baby son. Don hesitated for a moment before agreeing.

I arrived at the store early and waited to meet Don. The door happened to be a bus stop sign, and there were a lot of pedestrians, and I stared intently at the men who came down from the car with a slight touch of handsome edge, reviewing and filtering one by one, trying to find a drop of shadow related to Tang. But time passed minute by second, I was looking for the handsome school grass, but never appeared. I finally got impatient and called Don, and when the phone rang, a few meters away from me, a man who described the dark and sloppy clothes also took out his phone and shouted my name into the microphone.

I took a few steps, almost in surprise, and hesitantly called out Don to the slightly arched man. And Don, looking up at me, is excited and complaining that I've been waiting for a pretty girl for half an hour. When I said that I had been waiting for half an hour but never found his shadow, his eyes, suddenly a little sad, said, when you were in the crowd at a glance will be able to pull me out of this number one handsome boy ah. I shrugged my shoulders and said, well, how come the number one handsome guy looks a little lame now?

And then Tang's performance, is more than I expected, this man who is always confident, I don't know because he has become timid as a father, or because he has a wife who dares to take matters into his own hands, but to buy a child's bottle, is actually a thousand kinds of choices, and called his wife for instructions, and with the shopkeeper spent nearly half an hour talking, and then bought a model.